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Coming back randomly

2011-10-14T15:57:00.000+08:00

Hi Guys..

Ok.. It's getting boring.
Well.. A very brief update.
I had a very big change of my life.
Which I choose a career path that is not related to what I've studied.

But still it somehow relates a little with my very first ambition
A little clue here - Law Practitioner

I guess what's bothering me at most at the moment is that
Am I satisfy with what I have now?
I think the answer is definitely a YES.

But as all human beings are greedy,
we take things for granted;
we demand for more when we are currently satisfied.

But isnt this a right thing to do?
We have to go through all sorts of stages in our life.
Right?

I need to get myself in a "future-planning" mode asap
=0

Hmm.. will see when I'm back frm the North this weekend.
At this moment of time~
Enjoy LIFE!!

I guess still, I'm better in expressing my feelings in words.
I mean.. writing down instead of speaking out.
No worries. I have lotsa note books for me to jot down my feelings!!
Thanks to Bii~ I have a new one

I need to print a photo for the cover~
=)

-Laters-
Cheers!

Getting Lazy

2010-11-02T17:24:00.000+08:00

I'm getting lazy on this blog.
Awww... So sorry for my readers.

Well basically,
Refer to the previous post;
I wasnt really happy working in this new company
As it is quite far from home well it suppose to be near
I was assigned to be in office to complete the power point slides ONLY
So... I do not go to the studio in PJ anymore
Everyday I'm coming to Brickfields.

I've calculated the cost of petrol consume.
It's aroud rm360 a month
Moreover, the RON97 Petrol has increase a 5 cents today!!

With a blink of an eye,
I've worked 17days and got my pay yesterday.
:)
Yay!

It has been mommy and Aunt Eunice's Birthday
Both I bought presents for them.
Really happy to cherish all the special moments with our loves one.

Well
Good to sat that me and ♥'s relationship is getting better
Although it's only like at the beginning
But hopefully it lasts forever eternally
*This just sound so geli ~.~
hahaha!
But I really wish that.

You are getting your braces treatment commence end of this month
for the reason being : For the sake of better wedding portrait
That's what you said
hahaha!
Well, it may sound like it's nothing to do with me
:((((

Hmm...anyway I was happy to be with you along
for everything :)

Besides that,
I guess there is nothing much about my life now
But juggling in between my work, relationship and family.
Hope it could be more interesting as time passed!

All the best to myself
:)

Hmm..basically i'm at work now
=S
Trying to give a break for myself
as I cant wait to meet up my ♥ at KL Central
Waited for me an hour =(

First Day of Work

2010-10-12T22:45:00.000+08:00

Aaa~ Am so refresh now..
Hmm..not really.

Feeling really tired
As I didnt get enough rest.

My first day of work
It was not bad~

Today I headed to studio instead of office
and studio was only in Section14 PJ
Awww~ near near~

and when I reach the studio
No one was there yet
I was early!
:D

*surprisingly huh?
Slowly I'll show my true colors
hahaha!

Well,
I feel like i'm a secretary.
Cause I was doing power point slides for the whole day
Yea, learnt how to do the stuff
but not sure if I can handle it without anyone helping me
=\

Well, for you to know
I'm actually working as a Assistant Producer
in a company which produce Study Materials to the school
It's a Tuition TV "iTTV" and the company is iBoXx

That's why the power point slides that I was actually doing
Is to convert the raw material in order to ease the presenter while shooting
Was pretty easy but I'm dealing with maths
All the equations and diagrams
*faint

But it's only the first day
Hmm.. Hopefully it's not a bad working experience that I'll have

After working today
I thought I'll be seeing ♥
But too bad...
I'm not...

so then..
I went to Eu Yan Sang
Yay~!
Finally I've got something for Aunt Eunice
Hope she likes it.
It's just something for health
=S

I dont know what I can buy though
=\

Ok.. I'm getting tired
Wondering if i'm driving Vios tomorrow
*the present is in that car boot
Hmmm.. I guess should be.
So I'll be heading over to his place after work tomorrow
and also wondering if the traffic will be bad when I head to work or even back frm work.

Yay~
Meeting up with ♥ tomorrow

Rest early tonight
I guess I have to get going from home at 8am in order to reach at 9am?
Hmm..Will see how tomorrow :D

Good nite peeps
and also All the best to ♥'s MUET test tomorrow

Monthsary :: Interview :: ♥ and Happenings

2010-10-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

Oh! So many things just happen in this few days
As stated on my previous post,
Yeap! I spent my day at KLCC with ♥ and his cousin
during our monthsary on last Friday.

Had Chilis as lunch and Sushi King as dinner
We also watched movie "Sammy's Adventure" very cute!
It reminds me of my final assignment - the sea turtle documentary
:)

Then after chilling at ♥ house,
We headed for dessert before sending me home
:)

The end of 7Oct
-------------------------------------------------------

All about interview

Got an interview for my job~
I'm now an Assistant Producer
hehe :)
With the expected salary
*although i hope to have more
:p
I'm satisfied with the first job
Starting to work tomorrow
Hopefully everything will be good!
Contract basis til February
Yay~!

Besides,
I also went to give it a try at the SIA interview with Krystle
But to my surprise
Not sure why didnt I even pass the first brief intro round?
Too fat
=.=
haha!

---------------------------------------------------

Happenings

It was my uncle open house at Ampang
It took me like 90mins to get there
Massive Jam!!
urgh~!

Malay cuisine
But i find it quite nice
:)
*for you to know, my uncle actually married to a malay lady

The day after
I didnt feel well
Aaaa~ only ♥ know why
But I went to walk around at 1U
Got two books which I wanted to buy
Yay~!

And I headed to my mom's friend house to makan dinner
Nice homemade ban min~ :D

Car accident again today~
sighs*
The tyre cover of my car actually flew off
Aa~!!
Why?!! Always my car having accident?
sad*

------------------------------------------------------

♥ stories

Awww... I had a great day with ♥ today
Was so happy to share with him right after my interview
Yay~ I got a job now :)

It was like we didnt met for few days after our monthsary
I'm so happy to spend time with you today ♥

We went for RM2 Sushi King Bonanza for lunch today
:D

And thanks for the red bean soup
I drank all ur effort
♥
:)

Although there were so many things happened after our monthsary
perhaps it is God that is making us to go through so many things
Before we are really thinking of attaching to each other
and Yes.. we are now attached to each other.
Arent we? ♥
:)

so much to say

2010-10-06T18:02:00.000+08:00

Again~ I abandoned my blog for almost a week
Well basically, nothing much
but I had a very bad weekend with ♥

All because I headed for Wing Chun class on the Friday night
Well, yea...
I started my wing chun class
It's every Friday night 2hours
But ♥ is not happy with it
I know the reason.

I'm really sorry about it
Of course I'd rather u happy but quitting it
But the matter is that I really wish to learn it
It isnt a bad thing isnt it?
Thanks alot for giving in
♥

Before all these things happened,
We went to celebrate Krystle and Cicak's birthday on thursday
Luckily both of them like the present
:)

Hmm...
And then I went out to Cheras on Monday
purpose - To get photos from Jeff
Thanks alot. :D

But.. what's the real purpose?
I actually wanted to spend time with ♥
Having whole day with ♥ is so much of happiness
Although we just had lunch and then spent time at home
But I'm already very happy with just that.

Hopefully things will get much better as time goes by
:D

But an accident happened on the way going for lunch
A stone hit my car's windscreen and then a crack is there
:(

I was so panic and cause ♥ worried too
And then I cried again =[
The reason being is :-
Cause ♥ was worried and ask me to get home earlier
But I thought we didnt have weekend together
and so many bad things happened for the pass few days,
So I thought we can spend the whole day together
=\
I thought he didnt want to spend time together
So i was unhappy with that.
But when I speak it out,
♥ laughed at me =S
Ya.. I know I'm silly
=\

Hmm...but luckily
daddy bought the windscreen insurance too~
Now waiting to be repaired
:)
*glad*

Yesterday,We all went back Seremban
Have hair cut~
Well, I just trimmed my hair
:)
Yay~!
Not much different though.

And today, I went to Bangsar with my brother
It's about his taekwondo academy.
Approaching a kindergarden :)
Yay~! Everything is good~
And hopefully may all the luck be with me always
:p

Lastly,
Tomorrow will be me and ♥'s monthsary
Not sure if he still remembers
=\

Hopefully yea~
But we are going out tomorrow to KLCC
:) Yay~
Hopefully I can be there earlier to get something for ♥

150 minutes

2010-09-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

Today was kinda packed for me.
As I was longing for tonight
Although we just spent 150minutes together
But I'm really happy
:D

We went for a walk in Midvalley
But you took an hour to reach my place cause of the massive jam
Awww.... sorry about that.

Hmm.. then we headed to grab the things we wanna grab
Hopefully it fits
:D

and hopefully he likes it
yea?

Nothing much to write about
But all I wanna say is
Spending time together with ♥ is something really happy
It need not to be long
*of course the longer the better
:p

Haha~!
Next week is our monthsary
but not sure about the plans yet
cause we might be apart
:(

I'm getting some sleep now
and We shall meet on Thursday~
missing ♥

:D

Happy X-Crew 2nd Anniversary

2010-09-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

None other days but 27Sept
It is the X-Crew day~!

Happy Anniversary to all my "siblings"
Although only 7 of us turn up
But then it's really happy that we all meet up once again :D

It has been 2 years
All of us has grown up
But still we are still the same in a way when we all "xiao" together
:D

Well,
I feel really great about the bond we had
Althought we are only meeting once a year or like say twice?
hmm..I really feel happy about what everyone is doing
especially for my 8-di :: Mas
other than 2-gor :: KK
he is the closest.
I'm really happy seeing him growing up
regardless the age and also mentality
keep holding on to ur beliefs and may you succeed in your career!!
All my blessings for you

Hopefully we can gather more often for catch up~
All the best guys! :D

Sunday

2010-09-27T00:16:00.000+08:00

I guess I'm really a half penang!
Cause I had all Penang specialty today
Hokkien Mee (Prawn Mee) for brunch
and then my grandma cooked Asam Laksa for dinner

My eldest brother came down to PJ today
for his dental monthly check up
And to my shock,
You guys ever heard of the Sushi King Restaurant
eat for free challenge?

He actually won the challenge!
Crazy~ and he swear he will never ever drink miso soup no more
hahaha!
5 portions of Soba in 10Minutes
Crazy right?!!

After my brunch
I headed over to ♥ house
Cause he was having flu for the whole morning
So I made a honey lemon for him
Consume more vitamin C and hope ♥ gets well soon

But then hor
ish ish~
I wasnt really mean it when I call him that
I'm sorry if you really mind it
When I say I'm sorry I really mean it
Hmm..Hopefully the bond gets stronger day by day
:)

I'm so happy now that I've decided where to go for the two fellas birthday celebration
One my sista - Krystle
One cicak - Nicholas
But they are all belated
=[

It's ok right?Really sorry about that
And presents arent ready
=S
Awwww~
Hopefully things will be cool by then
:D

Yay~
Tell ♥ about it tomorrow
Sleep tight aite!
Nites people!

And..Sista's birthday is actually today
so....
Krystle sista~ Happy Birthday!!
♥ mwah!

It's a drama ♥

2010-09-26T00:06:00.002+08:00

Yesterday and today was really drama for me wei
Let me tell you why is it a drama.

Please bare in mind.
Read this only you have time
It's gonna be LONG!

At first when I woke up in the morning
Awww... No morning sms wei~
I took the initiative
Texted ♥
And then I got all sorts of fickled minded answers
But urgh it's ok..
Finally u decided to off work earlier and had dinner together with us
Yay!!
-smoochies!-

Krystle headed TimeSquare much earlier than us
All because of mumusan, me and Lily was late
Reached almost 4pm.
Luckily she's ok with it.
Awww~
But still I feel so paiseh.

After we reached, first thing comes into our mind is eat!
First meal of the day at 430pm - Japanese Ramen :p
After meal headed to look for Lok and then check out some stuff for Katoonboy
We headed to U-Village in Sg.Wang for dinner
but I'm not eating at all~
Before that, lucky to know some people who worked in Low Yat
We bought the tickets online there
bwahahaha! Thanks alot~!

Then we headed home by LRT
and it was actually drizzling
Awww~ I was oh-so-emo
=.=
Not really
but just nothing much to speak as they are both talking about their college life
It's something out of what I know.. So just kept quiet and look at the so called scenery.

Thanks for the Bonjela anyway
*appreciate
Actually I dont care much for my health
I don take medicine even if I'm sick
Unless I cant take it
I don take Panadol
but touchwood* I dont get sick often
So ulcer for me is really rare,
But i'm not sure why i got 4 in one shot this time?!!
O_o

The medicine I consume the most would be those for gastric
I take it like nobody else's business
ha-ha-ha!
But sometimes I'm stubborn too
When it is really pain and I dont feel like taking it
I'd rather suffer
bwahahaha!

Hmm..1st drama was
When I wanted to buy an extra movie ticket just next to us
OMG! There is actually ONE left!!
That was oh-so-shock for me
:D

Then.. after ♥ nap
The drama commence.....
I guess he is stressed up as he woke up early in the morning and worked for such long hours
So I actually asked : what time are we moving?
Anything :: was the reply

urgh!
=.=
Since then we dont talk anymore
and it was still a little early
we bought sundae and then when it is almost time
I bought 20pieces of McNuggets
Cause basically I felt hungry and I ♥ mcD nuggets
So I bought that. Cause I can actually finish it.
I just need time
:p
But I have almost 2 hours =S

Heading into the cinema
Still not talking
and we were seated 3 seats apart
And you took my nuggets half way after I ate 4 or 5 pieces
And middle of the movie you throw ur jacket to me
=.=

urgh!
I dunno what's wrong?Cause for me
problem started when I asked u what time we are moving.
After the movie, you were telling me
"4 ulcers and you are still consuming such heaty food? with this quantity?"
The moment you said it I was like "Oh..after a few hours and this was the first sentence?"

All the way back to my house
I looked at the so-called-scenery again
Right after I reached home
I headed to my bed,
shut the door, stuck my head into my pillow and cry out loud!

Then only I was thinking, what for?
But still I'm sad.
Then I posted my feelings on FB
and mumusan consoled me
And I saw my bestest bud left a comment there too
Thanks alot :)
I know you all must be thinking that I've not been treated well
But am not, it is just some how I'm capricious
I went to shower and then roll on my bed and slept with tears in my eyes

The next morning
I was woke by the msg tone
I cried again when I see the msg
It was frm ♥
I didnt know all the while I had a misunderstanding on him
I should have realize it when he went out to get the Bonjela for me on purpose after we headed home and it was actually drizzling. And also apply it for me.
I should not have be in anger when he was talking to me after the movie scolding me why am I not take caring myself with 4 ulcers and I still consume heaty food.

I'm sorry anyway and I ♥ U
You always showed like you didnt care
But I wasnt getting the right message that you were trying to tell me through ur action.
Silly me
:(

We had a talk today
And I was really happy to have spend my whole day with you today
Hopefully everything will go well and better as time pass.
Thank you very much.
I really hope you can talk to me more like how you did today
I wish to know more about you.
I wanna know how and what you think.

♥ you always.

Happy Mid Autumn Festival :: 22Sept

2010-09-24T01:43:00.000+08:00

These two days seem really ordinary for me..
Stayed home and be homie girl

It was the Mid Autumn Festival yesterday
and I wasnt even celebrating
stay at home spend time with my family
=\

And then today the producer texted me
and Yeah! I got my pay~!!
Wee wee..
but i'm gonna spend it tomorrow anyway
:(

Awwwww!!!
Really nothing much wei
Oh ya..
It's the Halo Forest Very Idol 2 concert tonight
Just past..wonder how was it ler...
hmm.....
Heard that it wasnt that good after all.
Not sure
crossed finger*

Well, I'm now looking forward to tomorrow's outing
Argh!!
I so wanna go out~
Spend time with ♥

Not sure if ♥ is asleep
But working is really stressed up for u i guess
=\
xin ku le~
When I see you then I'll give u some massage k?
-smoooch-

Not sure if you are feeling good now
hmmm....
I actually don really understand what you had on your mind
Hope tomorrow's outing will be good
and may all goes well
:p

I'll see you soon!
♥ Sleep early and I shall look better
bwahahahaha!

But awww...i'm craving for hot chocolate!!
hmm..ok..
My brother make one and tempted me!!
I've got 4 ulcers in my mouth already
YET
I still make myself a GAO hot chocolate
wahahahahaha!!
=S

Quite guilty actually
but...
who cares?!
A cup of hot chocolate
MMmmmMMMmmm~
A better sleep i'll get
:p

Bad Working Weekend

2010-09-21T20:26:00.002+08:00

Last Sunday
It was my first job ever working as a PA for TVC
And I found it quite ok
EXCEPT for the long working hours
It was suppose to be wrap on 230am
so it's about a 18hours job
But it ended up 25hours!

I went out to work at 845am
and came back home around 930am
What is this man?!
All because of the director!
The Asst Dir even walked off from the spot
and the producer has to look for the other AD to substitute.

Shits happened
And yet my ♥ wasnt texting me at all
I was so worried
But it's all ok now.

I just think too much
=S

As after I took my shower and all
A shocking news strikes me
A news of my long lost primary friend
He passed away cause of an car accident
The news of his accident :-
http://ondscene.my/kemalangan/road-to-batu-tiga-pelajar-kolej-maut

I felt so shock when I heard of it
and to me it was really "OMG"
It's been 10years that I havent seen him
Lost contact after primary school
He was sitting next to me during our standard 6
used to be a cry baby
and always call me at night to ask about homework
everyday...
Lots of joy and memories he brought to us
He was such a joker.

I thought I'll be ok.
But I just cant take it when I saw him at his funeral
When his mom was talking to him
Telling him that we are there to see him for the last time
All we can do now is pray and may him Rest In Peace.

Before I headed his funeral
I went to watch Resident Evil with ♥
couple seat neh~
:D

He was asking
Are you sure u wanna watch?
U've already watch it wor..
But it's ok mar..
I can watch with him again
right?hehe :p

Since he wanted to watch it so much
And of course I wanna accompany him to watch it ler
:p

Mmm... after that I actually stayed at home today
Did nothing much cause I woke at around 2pm

But seriously
I've heard of so many car accident recently
Not only injured
But passed away

So people
When you are driving
Drive safely
Never drink and drive
Dont use mobile while driving
Dont speed!

Saturday :: Advanced Mid Autumn Fest Celebration

2010-09-19T01:27:00.000+08:00

Today is just as bad
Nothing changes
Still the moody me.

Early in the morning I wake up
Looked at my mobile
No sms
Disappointment strikes me once again

But I really miss my ♥
Thus.. I texted
"Morning"
and I got a reply
"Morning baby.. how r u?"
Aww... that was so sweet isnt it?
Make me so wanna cuddle you~
smoooch!

But my cousin visited malaysia
and I had to bring them around for food hunting
So I have got no time for ♥
and yet he is staying home alone
I felt so guilty

After our brunch
I got a call frm my fren
That i've asked about a job
Then I headed for an interview
and they would like me to join their team for tomorrow's shoot?
Ok....
So i gotta work tomorrow frm 9am-2am
Long hours right?
=\

Urgh!
But it's ok..
hmm...actually I wasnt really like that interview at all
Cause the EP sounded sarcastic and the salary they are offering is just
WAY TOO LOW!

Roar!
Hmm...well
just go and try out tomorrow and see how things go

When I'm back from interview
I just rest on my bed and as time pass
time to go over the field for the Mid Autumn Festival Celebration

Aww.. the good old times that when we were young
Playing candles, lanterns bla bla bla~

Hmm...this time was the first time ever the RT - Rukun Tetangga is making such a big celebration
Alot of the neighbourhood turned up
All the faces that I've not seen =S

And there goes my day.
We didnt text much
And I'm not sure if ♥ misses me
But I missed ♥ so much
Yet I'm not sure why I don wanna text ♥
Cause he wasnt replying me =\
Awww... I dont know about it
sighs*

Dont think so much..
I gotta head to bed!
Tomorrow 9am-2am wei~
OMG!
T^T

Ganbatte Yean!!

Ordinary Friday :: 17Sept

2010-09-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

Look at the calendar
And it's already mid of September
Already a month that I've come back frm Melbourne
And I just wish to dream on till the end of this month
Less than two weeks for me to do so.

I thought it was so ordinary
But it is not.
Things been so bad in my family
I wonder, what relationship are we in the past?
It was that causing us not having a good daughter-mother relationship now
"Dont talk to me" she claimed.

I'll do as I mentioned
When I can afford myself
I'll definitely move out of this house
I swear!

也許
我和這家人的緣分
就盡是如此

I'm just a failure in managing relationship
All kinds of relationship
Family, Friends, and my ♥

Ya..I know it's my fault
I just dont understand
Can you just leave those things and let me do it my own way?
Then for sure you'll say
You think you are living your own?
=.=

So.. ok
I'll afford myself and find a way to live my own
Outside.. not at this house with my family.
Ya.. friends are always more important for me
Not my family.
That is what you always say!

Whenever you scolded me
Definitely I will fight back
But today I didnt
And then you asked me :"are you dumb?why are u not talking?"
And then you said I'm ignoring you. "Am I talking to the wall or something?"
I can tell you that I'm not
But I just choose to be silent. And my heart bleeds.

sighs*
I hate my family!!

Malaysia Day ::

2010-09-16T22:40:00.000+08:00

This is the first year ever our country declare today as Malaysia Day
Congratulations to all citizens - Another public holiday we have

*I'm not too sure about 1Malaysia though
haha!

Yay! My laptop seems revived!
And with the brand new os Windows7
Thanks to my ♥ :D

I had a very nice day spent with him
Yesterday right after his work
I went to meet him up and porridge was our lunch
^^

*the one in Jalan Pudu whr I tried once with my uncle
NICE

Not only my laptop but also ♥'s laptop
A brand new LCD screen
*luckily it is still under warranty :p

Being together with someone you ♥ is just simply happy
The happiness you felt is way to hard for me to describe with words
Spending time together is just more than enough
Need not to have activities
Cuddle up together in the sofa enjoying movie
bla~~ such a cozy feeling ♥

I just wouldnt get bored even you are on a meeting
Well, I just do my own things without disturbing you
Sooner or later you'll come to me..
wont ya? :p

Things got worse today
Till now, I'm really not sure if i have lost the pendant
Although you say this is the spare one
But why is thr a spare one? Did I really lost it or this was the one that I was actually wearing all the while?
The feeling was so bad really really bad
As though I've lost something that is really really precious to me
I know you dont like it when I cry
So I tried to control my tears today, but it just feel so bad
:(

Hmm..so many things bothering me
Sometimes knowing things are really suffering
When you said that this was the spare one
I was happy. Cause I know you bought two.
But think about it, if this was the one I was wearing all the while
I felt so sad.
But I know this is all past, I shouldnt have mentioned or say it.

When I get to know about it
I still make fun of myself saying
"Oh..so it's actually a dispersed investment"
sighs*

I know I ♥ you so much
that
I wanted you so much
since almost a year ago?

But seriously
I always wonder
I felt so insecure with our relationship
As though it's gonna end anytime
*touchwood =\

That is why I walked away
I couldnt stand it when you make fun of this
You were saying
"Oh..I didnt know it will be so fast this time"
"What??!" I asked
and then you said "ended so fast"
and "over" was the word you said

What comes on my mind right away hearing u saying that was
"So this is wat you are hoping always?"
Tears tumbling and I walked away
Ran into the washroom and broken down for minutes
sighs*

Really
there are so many kinds of feelings I'm feeling
Sometimes, I know I'm silly
But that's just the way I am
I'm trying really hard to make it work this time
I hope you will as well do the same
and not only hoping it works this time.
Not just words but by action
=\

I'm not asking anything from you at all
Just hoping both of us are having the same feelings to each other

And I heard you say
"I ♥ you......" follow up by "Ferrero Rocher"
=.=

ish!
:p

Oh so silly~!
Just a small little word :: action :: bla bla bla
Happiness there is for me
♥

Come what may
I will ♥ you until the end of time

Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2010 + Weekend

2010-09-14T17:39:00.000+08:00

Basically there is nothing to do with the festival of my title
It's just another ordinary day for me
where PJ's traffic is so clear and there is no jam at all

But still wish all my malays friends and relatives enjoyed their holiday
and yet it is now ended.

After I've passed my last thursday with misery
*LOL!
I had a very nice weekend with my ♥ ones

We went for movie on Friday
which is the "suckiest" movie ever - PiranHa
which i think it's not worth watching in cinema
due to the length of the movie
It's not even 90minutes! I think it's only approximately 70minutes
!@#$!#^&%$@ !!!
and with all that sanguinary and bloody scenes
yuck!!

My Saturday was really bad
It was so so bad..
My mom wasnt talking to me at all
hmm.. just because of a silly reason
and I cried on the night before
I spammed my brother's msn while i'm hiding in my blanket
"water pipe" wide open T_T

urgh!
But there are just so many things going on
=\
Till the extend that I couldnt take it anymore
Hmm...and so.. moody Saturday.

Where Sunday was a great day hanging out with ♥
We went out for a walk in two shopping malls that day
But it was a group outing that day :(
Awwww....
Day ended having dinner together with his family
:)

And yesterday my family and I went back to Seremban
My aunt cooked some Pumpkin dessert that me and my brother have longed!
yummy yummy~*

Chill whole day at my aunt's house
I just felt so happy yesterday
haha~*
Great things are keep coming up
My aunt even cooked petai as dinner snacks~
Awww!! drooling* My favourite ler~

And also I've received sms frm ♥
Eeee!! It's just so sweet~
hahahaha melted~*
Cause i've got muacksie with ♥
:p

Hmm.. as for today
me and my brother cleaned the house
well of course i did more
:P
hahahhaa*
Hmm.. feeling very tired now
So am just chilling in study room bla bla
writing my blog.

And ohYa!
♥'s mom is having a trip to China
Safe trip lur :)

-smoooch- Muaacksss
signing off with ♥

contrast

2010-09-10T01:16:00.001+08:00

Wednesday was really an awesome day for me.
As the whole day I'm running in and out with my mom settling things frm the bank
and also I went for pedicure~ ooh~! nice!!

and at night
it was the premiere of Resident Evil : Afterlife
I got the 3D ticket frm my uncle
2 tickets therefore I went with my brother
The movie was awesome but one thing is that
we have to surrender our mobile and any electronic devices
=.=

very sien lor..
after i finish the movie
someone also fall asleep already

and I thought aww~ thursday is coming
Yay~ and my mom is away from home
I got so much freedom to do wat i wanna do
So I was so looking forward for today
but it ended up really bad
worst day ever i can say.

At first i thought
everything will go as how it was planned.
one of my friend wanted to go Midvalley for his watch
but even though he has only one day off per week
I insisted to go Timesquare
Cause I know he is working there
and after his work we can have dinner together then back home~
Aww..how sweet of that right?that you can spend more time with the special someone

But sometimes
things just doesnt go like how you think or how u want it to be
things got so bad today
everything was ruin just because I did something........
It was still ok before evening
and I am stil having hopes before we had our dinner.

Disappointment strikes me.
And I have no appetite at all
I thought desserts will help to cheer me up but it didnt
sighs*

Walked and surveyed all the apple shops
But the thing that he wanted to buy is no longer selling
not even the one in Pavillion

Ya..i know i'm silly
walking all over bukit bintang =.=
haiz

It's ok..
Well still I'm happy that I met a new gal today
she's so young and I know I'm getting older
=.=
Well, she is a nice gal though
I went all the way to Klang just to pick her up
with GPS ahahaha!
Luckily I just have to send her back to oug :)

Hmm..after whole day of disguising my feelings
I finally pour out after sending everyone home
I felt so quiet, lonesome and helpless

Why doesnt he even bother to just send me a sms
letting me know that he is already home?

All kinds of questions strikes me..
and I was driving slowly on the highway
dangerously as well as I wasnt concentrating.

I almost got hit by a car coming out frm a junction
Not noticing it until he honk me so loudly
:(

As when i almost reach home
I quickly wipe off and dried my eyes
and thought things would get better
I texted him :: I'm home

:(
and the feeling comes again
So I quickly ran up to my bed
*so that my family wouldnt notice anything

After some time
settling my emotions
I went to take a shower and hope everything gets better
But as I bath, my mind just wouldnt shut
All sorts of things coming in

And I broke down in the bathroom.
Wash up and changed
Off i head to my bed

It seems so hard to control my emotions
haiz*

I dont know what should I do or even say now.
It just started and things are already going so bad?
How would it lasts?
and just now you were asking me
Have I regretted?

What are u trying to implement?
How would I be regretting?and Why??
Haiz*

Sometimes I just dont get it
what's actually on your mind?
I'm really sorry for doing something you dont like and that you've told me before

But today, for what I'm thinking is just hanging out altogether
and I was hoping so much to meet up with u after ur work.
Haiz
I just hope to spend more time with you.

I hope u will appreciate and cherish the time we have together
Cause it seems like we dont have much time
That's what I'm feeling right now.
Things are gonna change, for sure.

When I start to work
When U start ur new semester
and bla bla bla all sort of things
*haiz

I dont know will things really work out this time
But we've gone thru so much
haiz* I'm feeling so mixed right now

How I wish it not so complicated.

ohMy~! Oo-la-LaAh~

2010-09-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

Aaaaa!!
I so wanna scream out so loud now~!! Eeeee~~

Everything just happened so sudden
Oh MY!
I was just in a mood of getting "recover"

urgh!
But then ohMy~
Today after heading to dentist
I headed to Edifier company
Yay~ katoonboy's speaker is done~!

Then I got a call from this special someone
After for totally not talking for 2 days
Hmmm.......

Aaaaaaaaaa!
We went out for lunch and a walk today
and Eeeee~ =X

Mmm...
but Why??
All question marks in my mind

sighs*

Yea..Of course I'm happy
but what comes next is worries

hmmm...I really dunno
Yea I know I want but...
urgh~
I dont know what you think
=X

I dont want it to be
come and go as if it's something so easy
I dont think I can afford any kind of lost anymore
sighs*
You are serious? Are you?

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm................................
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm...........................
Hmmmmmmmmmm.......................
Hmmmmmmm..............
Hmmmmm.......
Hmm.....

Yean~ Just shut your mind
and Hope it works well
yea :)

Positive positive
mwah mwah!

只想要 :: 簡·單·愛

Wei Jie's Wedding Dinner

2010-09-06T18:54:00.003+08:00

Congratulations to my cousin brother who got married yesterday
You are now husband of ur wifey larr..
Take good care of her arr
and I wish u all the best
Appreciate and Cherish all the moments together
:D

Well, basically that was what happened last night
before the night falls
but I was really really bad mood
Really feel like killing myself
So I drank red wine and beer during the wedding dinner
but no matter how much I drank
I just dont get drunk
where I actually wanted to get drunk and forgot everything else that is on my mind

and ah-ha!
Forcing out a smile and pretending I'm happy is really what I always did well
Disguise all the feelings I had deep in my heart
Only open up my heart to myself and to my blog

But I felt bad when I'm back at home
I couldnt sleep at all and that stupid feeling in my stomach
Eiuuu!
But still I'm so tired that I fall asleep even though i'm not feeling well

Then this morning my mom woke all of us up early
and I have this hang over feeling which made me feel really bad!
My head feels like it is 100tonnes!
=.=

But still I just hold on to myself and then wash up and did a mask
After a mask started cleaning the house and bla bla bla
there goes all the house chores

Half way of that,
I had to go out to settle my loans
URGH!
The stupid PTPTN
ish! I really hate the service in Malaysia
Dont wanna mention anything about it
=.=

After settling all the things
Headed home and continue with all the house chores
And now I'm having serious back ache
haiz~*

and this morning
I found out the reason of me
being so childish on last Saturday nite after the movie
hormone imbalance :: sighs

Ya.. I fucked up everything
And we are not talking anymore

urgh
Ok. As you wished.

I am again staying home alone again
even though people asked me out
sighs*

I didnt have appetite at all
=\
Let me fall sick.

Love Heart Shaped Pendant

2010-09-05T13:27:00.000+08:00

Thanks for the pendant
I really do appreciate it

I bought it online. You said
erm.. your friend were selling?? *something like that*

I asked
why did you suddenly bought me a pendant?
You answered
i like the design at the back, it's very refined

But you didnt answer why did you give it to me??
sighs*

I will NOT wear it
I had a vow to myself
but a silly one
which it will NEVER happen
*ha-ha*

I will only wear it
unless we are attached to each other
and will never take it off

silly huh?!
just laugh at me
cause i'm laughing at myself either

Well
at least for now
I had this silly shit on my mind
I'll keep it good in a corner of my drawer
looking at it everyday once I open my drawer

but guess
I'll never get to wear it

Bothered Saturday

2010-09-05T13:01:00.004+08:00

I wanted to blog on last night
but my brother started the download
and caused me in so much miserable loading even a page!

=.=

So.. i decided to head to bed and then TRY to sleep
Well
I was in a really great mood yesterday
but let me emphasize
great mood BEFORE the movie
*sighs

I woke up 6am in the morning yesterday
but slept 2am on Friday night
as my cousin is having open house
*his wedding*
Came home at 12am and I headed to bed immediately
but I cant sleep at all!!

and then I headed to Ampang by LRT early in the morning at 645am
the sky was still so dark and
for the FIRST TIME i'm feeling so terrible
As if it's so dangerous.
How would I have such feeling?
Malaysia is just NOT SAFE AT ALL
Walking alone in the street in Melbourne City is not scary at all!

Shooting started when we reach the location and it only stopped for lunch
It was a busy shooting and shooting ended 630pm.
At first i thought i'll be home late cause it is the time where traffic is the worst
but luckily many thanks to Jeff
he dropped me at the Putra LRT station
so that I dont have to get transit from Star Line and then Putra Line
Yay~!

As I finished work
I quickly called my dear Lily
cause we have a date to movie that i've longed!
Step Up 3D!!
But sadly, I was so upset at first
cause no more nice seats left =(

But i'm craving for Step Up 3D!!
So regardless anything
I bought the tickets in 1U
which at first we planned to watch it at Midvalley
And I even offer a ride to my friends at Salak South
Cause I really wanted to watch that movie so so much!

When I reached 1U the traffic in the parking lot is awfully BAD!
But luckily we still manage to find a parking which is quite near to the entrance
:D

And then i was so so so excited
BUT as i sit on the seats
OMG! the seat is BROKEN and also Lok's which is next to me
WTH?!! I paid for the movie and you are giving such service?!!
But as the movie started I totally forgot about the chair
as I got so excited~ Woah!

But somehow
I felt that he is bored
=\
sighs*
What ever.

I dont know what he thinks
I dont know what he wants
Sometimes
I just use to think
maybe I'm just too............. well
I dont know what's the right word to even describe myself
Ya maybe I'm annoying or irritating
But maybe you dont even care anything about me
I dont know what happen after the movie
Maybe I'm just thinking too much
Or maybe you are just tired.

:: I'm not sure :: At all
You werent talking to me
Even I am asking you question
You were answering after 10seconds
And I greeted you goodnite and bye
but no response in return

Or even a sms asking whether am I home?
Until I spammed ur mobile
After sending them home
I took a slow drive with my dear
but after sending my dear home
I speed all the way at LDP
I felt lonesome
What's on my mind at that moment was

"Why not I just die in a car accident?!"
All the way to Sunway and then took a U-Turn back to Kelana Jaya
sighs*

Until now
I had this very mixed feeling
I dont wanna eat anything at all
Not hungry at all
Moodless
brother went to work
and Family is out for lunch
but i stayed home

I thought of suiciding
but that's silly
And yet there are so many thing in this world
for me yet to embark :: explore :: experience

And lucky that I'm staying with my family
But I'd rather live like a corpse
I feel like going against so many things
I can just shed a tear out of sudden
I dunno why but maybe depression

I guess I might need a doctor
or maybe Caffeine to make myself numb
Alcohol to forget
or Drugs to hypnotize

I dont know who I am anymore
It seems like I've lost myself
sighs*

Maybe I should just go to HELL

2nd Day of September

2010-09-02T22:08:00.000+08:00

It's the second day
Hmm.. You demanded a deal saying
lets not find each other for like say a month or something
and see what happens
but i refused to do so.
I dont wanna say goodbye to you.

Cause even so I dont think things will get better in any way.
And we even talked about something like a "package"
what a funny way
=.=

Hmm.. it's ok
I know love isn't something to be force
It is best when both are ready
But in a way
hmm.. i just feel like
You dont wanna be with me and the reason being is
You dont ~~love~~ me.

Well
You can actually just tell me that.
I am mentally strong enough to take it
I wont commit suicide at all
*I know that is not what u concern :p
Cause I believe u know I wont

I've missed the way we are kissing
But against the wind i'm going home
Wishing me back to the time
When we were more than friends

::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

You were never satisfied
No matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one who make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the ~~man~~ girl your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

不是你的就別再勉強

::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

Please stop thinking!!
Why lar today go sing all the emo songs
T^T

*what a shame to say I cried in the room
!@#$%^$#@!

::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

Thanks Chee for the session~
See u in 2 and a half years~
Be sure to get ur degree arr!!
Dr.Chang!!
:D

Take care much in Russia
:p
Have a safe ride back to ur study

It's September

2010-09-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

September and it's Spring
what a wonderful season it is.

But it doesnt seem as wonderful as how it is.
I've been staying at home and hoping to go out today
but ended up you fall sick and then i went for a dinner
with an extra ordinary friend who we had such a weird relationship
but it'll only be something between us isnt it?

I felt so guilty after I called him
which I know he must be resting.
Cause I do..last nite.
After he sent me home, I took a shower
and then straight away I went to bed

I felt such lonely
like i never feel before
there is no one at home
parents went out for dinner
brother is at academy working
and younger brother was out with friend for dinner as well

I'm left alone at home
How I wish there is somebody who can accompany me
but sadly there is none.

Well then, I had enough rest
But I've bothered u the whole night before
and then the next nite u werent sleeping earlier either
but u woke up early this morning for class
So you take care bah.
Get well soon. Should be alright after a good sleep
^^

mmm... as now
I'm still wondering
whether did I actually did something wrongly??
But for sure we both know that things are being control
and it has been that way since last year

And i knew it as well
that u trusted me so much
but still....
hmm.. that day u were saying I didnt want a relationship?
Who said I didnt?
It's the way that u were acting
wasnt showing me that u wanted us to be together.
Did you actually even thought of that?
I not sure when did it ended up this way.

hmmm..
Please say that you will stay
Dont just come and go like you do
You know I always wanted you to stay.
Even if I asked you to leave,
why did u just left without leaving a word or even a single little thing?

Be strong and move on.
Dont be bothered
and everything will be fine as time pass by.

Com'on.
What makes me someone great?
Be who I am.
Isnt that right?
:D

Appreciate what I have now
and be really grateful
and think that I'm so fortunate to have all this
I love myself
I love my family
I ~~dont~~ love you

Thanks daddy mommy.
*my mom cook bird nest for us today :)

and my younger brother was asking me why do my eyes look so watery just now?

I didnt know how to answer him =\
just ask him back "is it?" and said "i must be tired"
but that was not actually what

I know whenever my elder brother see me cry
he will hug me so tightly and pat on my head
because he knows it even though i'm not saying anything
he knows that i must have been treated wronged.
But that was years ago
I havent broken down for so long whenever my family is there
I know for sure i can make it
I dont wanna be weak
at least not for them to see that I am.

I will move on and live life to the fullest
appreciate what I have now.

what a national day...

2010-09-01T17:19:00.002+08:00

Malaysia is already 53 years old
As it's getting older
the worse it gets.

Just like we human
things just got worse if it is not being repair?
hmm.. not sure i'm using the right word.

but yea.. so many issues going on in our country
definitely not a good country to live on
but still here is where i born.live
thus i think i'll be dying here too

however one thing is good about our country is
there are no nature disasters at all
but still does this means safe?
or i shall ask "no nature disaster?"
wat about tsunami then?
or manmade "disaster" to the nature?

suddenly i felt so patriotic
talk about issues of our country
but who would just give a shit?
maybe there are people who cares
but just A FEW.

National day this year was rather quiet
No one is asking where to count down or something
But this year was rather special for me.

I slept over at my friend's house
and
Oldtown was the place where we spent our Merdeka night
hahaha~

=.=

after the yumcha session we headed back home
then there is when things get complicated once again
Need not to mention anything
but yea
i got so bothered
but not anymore.

I'm sorry for falling for you
keep telling myself to let go
ha-ha-ha

It sound so ridiculous to some people
but I did it once wert
and this is the second time i'm doing this
at the same person
move on~!

maybe he said it right
I have fetish on him
it's been so hurt
but i still go for it
and i know i'm silly
but u said in fact i am an idiot
=.=

oh~!
this shows how much i disappointed you
=\
But i'll get it right this time
I know people are seeing me in deep shit and trying to save me
but i'm the one who is refusing help from the others
urgh!

Thanks for those who cared
:)

Jiayou Yean!!
Love urself more than other people
:D

super sunday

2010-08-30T02:09:00.001+08:00

yesterday i was so emo
but right after i post the blog
a sms came and asking me out today :D

Not sure if i am suppose to be happy?
But i went out with him at last.
A full day spent with him and his family.

why things are always going this way?
whenever i'm feeling it's an end,
there comes hope.
sighs*

Well, when i decided to go out today
i'm just in the mood like ok..just an ordinary friend friend hang out day
And then here comes he calling
I thought he reached cause i was kinda late
but plan changed and ended up i went out with his family in midvalley
we had brunch in TGIF
*thanks aunty :D

And that to my surprise
I got a small little prezzie from him
thanks and I really ♥ it
*appreciate

And then we walked around to look for Lok's birthday present
and at nite we went Kuchai Lama for korean cuisine
Thanks cicak's brother for the dinner

It was really a great day today.
I enjoyed it much.
But what comes in my mind is that...
Should I continue to dream on?
I'm doubting on my decision made again.

haiz

why are things keep on repeating again?
What should I really do?
I'm already forcing myself
Do not think of anything beyond friends
Yes, I know that.

unless.. wait! no unless
Do it! and that's it!
Although it a little hard,
but all i need is just time
:)
right?

All the best to me
I know you definitely find someone much better
:D

Saturday

2010-08-29T00:28:00.002+08:00

An ordinary Saturday which nothing much happened.
What's most happening is KK's Birthday Celebration at his new house~
Well, I dont have any photos of Birthday Celebration with me.
But yea.. again!
Happy Belated Birthday! :D

This morning when I woke up,
It really started so so bad!
I thought it will be good
As I had a great movie on Friday night.

But what make my morning so bad is that
I cant make it for a date.
But it wasnt my fault wert.
If you would like to ask someone out,
*yea, I know sometimes it's impromptu
but...sighs*
Should have asked earlier right?
If you have planned something?
I not sure of what u said that you were to tell me or even give me
If u have something to tell me,
cant it be anytime or anywhere?
sighs*
ok dont wanna talk about this......
I was waiting for you to ask me out on Friday
You were the one who said Friday was public holiday and lets go out
but ended up u went movie on Thursday night and I dont know who u went with.
Or what you even did on Friday?
Actually I wanted to ask u for movie on Friday
but just that I'm watching in 1U and it might be far for you
*sighs
whatever lar..anything I say now is useless.. right?
fine.

Lets not talk about this.
I tried to make myself so busy today
I dont wanna get bothered by all this
=\
But I cant concentrate at my work at all
I cut my finger and ankle so deep
and it keeps bleeding if I took off the plaster
*sighs

And when night falls
I went to my friend's birthday celebration
we played some house game - Heart Attack and Murderer
*i dont wanna be murderer lar~!!
and people are trying to dump people into the swimming pool~
hahaha~!

Luckily I have them with me :)

And also congratz to my brother
wahahaha!
he knows what i'm referring to here :D

Heading to zzz :D

A Great Day

2010-08-28T02:19:00.000+08:00

Well basically what makes my day was the movie - Inception

Starring Leornado DiCaprio
Directed by Christopher Nolan (Director of The Dark Knight)

I was so impressed by this movie.
As I was kinda blurry when I was on the way to the cinema.
*Just woke up frm a nap after swimming
I was totally awake after the movie!

It was awesome
Well I just dont understand why some people dont get the movie?
hmm.. *rolling eyes*
It's just another movie that you cant miss it!

Ya..by now you will say I'm a little outdated right?
Well, to let you know, to my surprise,
after so long that it has been released,
the cinema hall that I was in was actually FULL!!
even the first row!!
NO EMPTY SPACE at all!

Actually there are so many movies that I wanted to watch
most desperately - Step Up 3D

It's already in cinema on 26th Aug

My brothers got tickets and watched the premiere screening
=\

Argh!
I wanna watch it as soon as possible :D

Hmm.. heading to sleep already~
I'm meeting with so much people next week~
Need to plan my next week properly~

I wanna meet up with Lucky Star ♥
I wanna meet up with DarL ♥
I wanna meet up with my daughter ♥
I wanna meet up with my jimuis ♥

It's Merdeka Week
It's Lok's birthday
It's time to "cheong k"
It's time for dental check-up

Awww~ so many things next week
=\
Make time make time~!!
:D

Awww~!! I'm so looking forward to meet up with Lucky Star ♥
Eeeee~!! Xp
Better sleep earlier as tomorrow is my bestest buddy's 23rd Birthday Celebration
Weee~!!
Nites peeps!

2010-08-27T01:55:00.000+08:00

不要跟我說對不起
那是我最不想聽到的話
因爲根本就沒有分對或錯

怎麽在這個時候
他突然想我了?
該怎麽辦?
爲什麽是這個時候?
我對他的感覺確實是愛
只是他把我儅什麽了？

就只是因爲需要
才找我的嗎?
難道這世上就沒有好男人了？
還是應該說是自己沒遇到吧

更好笑的是
今天和我實習的同事吃晚飯
他既然問了
"你之前好像是被人hurt hor?"
多奇怪啊
=.=

身邊的朋友都高呼愛情萬歲儅兒
我只能說單身萬歲
雖然如此
有時候我真的很希望能夠有人疼疼我
=\

只是
我有可能已經成爲別人的代替品而已了吧
又可能只是一個陪襯品
haiz

該怎麽辦?!!
T____T

我不想再為這些事情煩了
我看你也找到別人陪了吧
把我遺忘了被丟在一邊了

埋在被單裏哭多這一天就好了!!
別再哭了!!

勢必要想辦法把他忘了!!

Guess this is it.

2010-08-25T16:18:00.001+08:00

还是原来那个我不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容
不算什么爱错就爱错
早点认错早一点解脱

我寂寞寂寞就好这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的借来的都该还掉
我总会把你戒掉

还是原来那个你是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么什么都没有
早点看破才看得见以后

我寂寞寂寞就好这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的我总会把你戒掉

***************************************

這應該是我現在該做的吧
雖然是不捨得
但是再不捨得也是時候放手了吧
說了放手放下好多次
這次我真的要做到了
反正這種感覺再繼續延續下去
受傷的也是自己罷了
也會連累了別人讓人覺得煩死了
也讓擔心我的人為我操心了

=\

其實如果是喜歡我的話
那麽久了
也該會有點行動吧
如果真的沒有什麽行動
那自己應該識相吧
還不是代表了他真的是沒有喜歡你?
如果不是這個意思, 那是什麽?

也許我真的對他太好了
就真的太好了, 所以不珍貴了
真的是把自己糟蹋得一點餘地也沒有
說起來真的是很難聼

*放空-ing

在寫下這篇post時
真的有好多好多的情緒
寫了又擦掉
再寫又在擦
haiz~

對不起
打擾你了

我覺得
她的話真的很難聼
但的確我思考了
我和我喜歡的他之間的問題
也讓我煩惱和懊惱了好幾天

晚上也只能躲在被窩裏哭泣
要睡也睡不着
也沒有誰可以分享

畢竟是自己的問題
是我脆弱了
扛不住哭泣了

子欣
堅強起來好不好?
子欣是很堅強的哦!
從來都不哭
就算再怎麽委屈也受得住
不要被這次的問題打敗咯

這樣繼續鼓勵自己
也許有用吧
加油!!
給我一點時間
沒有什麽是不可以的

mm~!!
:)

mistakes

2010-08-25T11:35:00.002+08:00

I think I've did something really bad.
I shouldnt have say it out.
sighs.

Things will start to change for sure.
Should I say I'd rather stay as how it is?
I dont wanna be the closest stranger with you

I know the way i'm doing things are really bad
I dunno what to do.
It seems like i've made it worst.

sighs*

決定

2010-08-24T14:01:00.001+08:00

愛上一个人..........如此的甜蜜卻又讓人受傷害
放棄一个人..........如此的難過卻又讓人心碎

珍惜身旁的每一个人,不要等到失去了
才瞭解到遺憾.和後悔是如此的痛苦....

~※→因為愛你.所以放手還你自由←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開←※~

如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?
如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?
是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

我的決定到底對不對?
=\

~*~在此祝福全天下所有的有情人~*~
~*~都能夠忠誠眷屬~*~

Pasta Zanmai

2010-08-23T23:56:00.000+08:00

It was a good day today.
Started off good and till now..
everything is good :)

Settled all the banking stuff
and now hoping the currency to raise!
cause I did something silly
=\

After I settled all my stuff
It's almost 5pm
As I had a date with him
hahaha :D

But end up we and his cousin headed Midvalley for dinner.
And I picked up them for work..
hehe ^^
Sound sweet hor?
hehe ^^
How I wish is there are people to pick me up from my work
Just like how Charlotte wished that I could pick up her frm Fawkner Park everyday
:D
hmm..It's been almost two weeks that I'm back in Malaysia.
I start to miss Melbourne =\

Well, anyway
Pasta Zanmai is quite nice.

Those we ordered:-

Ice lemon tea in Jug

Half way eating..I felt so full

Guess my appetite is not that big anymore
haha!

After dinner we went to walk around
and we went ToysRus~

I saw this here!!

We played it in aussie~ and it's sold much cheaper here..
haha~!
It's really nice! Try it out bah~
:D

And now..I'm back at home here..
Hmm..felt much better than yesterday.
But am still bothered.
Whenever i think back those words,
they are really hurtful.

Should I really go against it?
Should I continue doing things that are so silly?
Should I?

or

Am I really silly?
Am I actually doing the right thing?
Am I?

I have no idea at all.
I have no one to share with either.
Sighs.

contradictions

2010-08-21T09:30:00.003+08:00

Awww.. why does it has to be so much of contradictions??
In the past weeks
I've been telling myself :-
"It's ok.. just move on my life and everything will be fine."

But why am I feeling so different yesterday?
I ~~want~~ him so much to the extend I feel like committing myself into a stable relationship
OMG =.=

Is that me?urgh!!
Ok..no pressuring!
Love is not about having it all by yourself.
You have to take care of the feelings of others.
Does he/she feels the same for u?
As if you feel he/she doesnt,
why not just get over it and then move on?

Oh com'on!!
How long has it been??
I dont like the feeling of ON and OFF
Yes I admit.
Sometimes I really do like it.
No couple but feels like it.
But somehow it is not as ~~good~~ as it is seen.

Can I please be very sure and get a solution to this matter?
sighs*

Demanding D;

2010-08-21T05:39:00.000+08:00

好想擁有你~!! 非把你佔為己有不可.
雖然我知道擁有這樣的想法的確很自私
只是縂覺得你真的好遙遠~好遙遠!
尤其是你那忽冷忽熱的心態..不過我會保持樂觀..
我在等一個人, 在等我的永恒.
幸福必定會到來~ 我相信!
請告訴我, 愛不是獨行俠! 愛絕不單行. :D

但是沒有愛上就不會害怕受傷吧？ =\
我到底想怎樣? 突然之間真的很想你!!
好想好好愛你

感覺上我真的肉麻死了
但是這就是我現在的感受啊
我真的很喜歡你的
=\

真的好想試着和你在一起
也許大家都覺得我很傻
只是今晚好像控制不住自己
*應該是今早了 =\
真的很想要豁出去
什麽都不管了

但是我知道
這只是我單方面的想法
我知道
你根本沒有要拍拖的想法

haiz~
我該怎麽辦?!!
T______T

好像不懂sot了那一條勁
=.=
Aaaaa~!!
我真的很喜歡你

Happy Birthday Sui Lou

2010-08-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

19th of August. It is always not an ordinary day since I knew him!
Well.. not whining at all or even complaining on how he made my days extra ordinary~
:D

Happy 23rd Birthday again to you.

This year we celebrated with ur students at Tenji Buffet in Solaris Mont Kiara.

*Awww wasted all my effort on working out the past two days.
I'm still wondering whether will I be able to head for your convocation
=\

We bought this little strawberry tart for you

Hope you like it :D

Hmm..it was suppose to be a day to cherish.
But in a way we werent happy and felt quite disappointed arent we?
You started the day badly and ended it well
But I started the day good and ended it bad
I did something really bad but i hope he understand
It's all my fault =\

Actually we were suppose to head to Tao Buffet but sadly it was full house.
Tenji's food was not bad. Quite good in a way,
I like its' lamb especially the mint sauce;
I like its' tiramisu it makes me thought of the cicak~
and
I like its' Haagen Dasz ice cream~!
But I felt so thirsty after headed home
hmm.. too much of Ajinomoto perhaps??
Not too sure. But definitely, I wanna try Tao
:D

Last but not least, I hope you really did enjoy ur big day
and Thank you.

future unsure

2010-08-19T13:22:00.001+08:00

Well, i'm finally back in Malaysia after a two months holiday in Melbourne.
It's true where someone says that was a great escape for me.
I wouldnt wanna come back to Malaysia. Because there are so many things for my to think about.
What bothers me the most is my future. I always wonder :
What will be my future? What must I achieve in few years time
or even what am I suppose to do.
Have I lose all my passion?mission?or vision??
Aaaa~ am still escaping.

Please think about it. I cant waste anymore time
sighs*

Or shall I continue to further my studies?
Another degree? hmm....
sighs*

Phenyl propionate 苯胺基丙酸

2010-08-06T02:08:00.000+08:00

No other reason, i'm just sharing some of my thoughts at this moment.
Out of no where, I feel unsure and also confuse.
Guess i have to find something else to occupy my time
so that I wont be thinking too much.

*sigh*

I ~~miss~~ him. It's been a while since i've seen him
I'm not really sure of our relationship but i guess we are quite comfortable with the way we are now.
And i think we are not gonna make it complicated either??

Yet..I'm not sure why sometimes I do feel ~~jealous~~ of some other girls that u are close to.
Hmm..well i've no right to be angry at all, just that i'm really unsure of why will i feel that way?Maybe I still haven't get over it yet.

*sigh*

I guess I ~~still~~ have feelings for him. Not sure when will it end.
Well he has many other choices. I shouldnt have interfere his life anymore.
Well maybe, he could really meet someone he loves.

忍

2010-07-13T00:47:00.000+08:00

何謂忍?
這個詞我不認識

對不起,
對你不禮貌了

死愛面子的我
卻不可能當面和你道歉

也許你是生氣了
我並沒有這個意思

你大可以和從前一樣
從來都沒有理會過
我發表的任何心情

總是在意你所說的一切
也許敏感了
也開始任性了

這次的任性
全出自于那一份
在意的心

因爲在意
所以發了脾氣
因爲在意
所以不知所措

一時衝動了
說了的話也收不回
算了
默默在自己的窩裏
向你道歉

至少你也已經讓步了
不要那麽小氣

對.不.起
謝.謝

等待

2010-07-12T02:37:00.001+08:00

我依然还在等待
等待你会明白
一颗坚强的心在等你回来

风在吹让他擦去我脸上的泪
不要以为我真的无所谓

不怕累只要我的身边有你陪
请你相信我是真的不后悔

………………………………………………………………………………

也許我是太敏感了
但是只知道
我好像真的是在浪費時間了

本來可以早一點睡的
結果還是等着你
不敢去睡
哪怕下一分鈡
你會找我聊天

結果還是自己找上了你
那一刻心完全是刺痛的

爲什麽要那麽在意?
也許他有更好的聊天對象
那應該是沒有錯的

雖然歌是這麽唱
但是我真的不知道
我該不該放棄等待

其實
我自己已經有一個答案了
而他也表明得很清楚了

我們

確實
不.可.能
吧?

你也有了新對象
只好祝福你幸福快樂

儅我找到那個他
你也一定要祝福我哦！
XD

無論如何
還是謝謝你
♥

俺
おまえの個と
好き

ありがとう　ども
悲しいじゃないくって
心配しない

碎

2010-07-07T02:29:00.000+08:00

夜阑人静的时候
就会想起你
望着满天的星星
期待着流星
只要一个愿望
希望我们可以从来

走在无人的街头
也会想起你
绿灯转了红灯
我依然在原地
只想停留在那一刻
我们拥抱的时候

不可能
不能从来了
你的心已有了别人
无法挽回了

不可能
也许不要再见
我会过得比较好的
也要祝福你
一定要幸福

又掉眼泪了
怎么你还不懂
我猜不透也看不透
也许我们只有三个字

.......................................

对不起
也许我会坏了你的好事
所以绝口不提了
对不起

为什么我的感情总是那么脆弱?
很难理解
………………………… 不明白

需要一点时间吧
到底还要多少时间?
拖拖拉拉都差不多半年了
怎么还不肯放下??
想怎样?
我会很坚强的
也知道你从不曾担心过我

再多一点点时间
你对我的影响力
就不再会是爱情了
谢谢你

Taekwondo Holiday Camp

2010-06-07T23:54:00.002+08:00

We, the E.X. Taekwondo Academy is organizing a holiday camp for the youngsters to spend their school holidays memorably~

These are the details below :-
Location : Adventure Community Center , Sukabumi ,Kendong, Negeri Sembilan
Date : 15 - 17th June
Price : RM 200
Many team building activities ,water confidence, etc. will be conducted during the camp.

Please note:
-This camp is organized E.X Taekwondo Academy and not by any other parties.

This is the campsite that we are heading.

=)

You can also check out this campsite on internet.
Just google Adventure Community will do
Any enquiries you can also contact me via email
extaekwondo@gmail.com

or

You can also log on to EX Taekwondo Academy Website for more info

We still have some slots left. Grab it before it's too late~
We can guarantee you the fun :D

Swimming Spree!!

2010-06-07T03:20:00.000+08:00

Yes yes yes~
I finally got to swim~
XD

TODAY!
hahaha~
Thanks for being the driver today
XD

and also your mommy for the vege
=]

Well well
why finallY?
it's because
I planned to swim on last Thurs
BUT!! It was so sudden~
everything was fine
UNTIL we reach the swimming pool!

SO HEAVY RAIN!!

all the SIEN face
:p

mm-hmm
I enjoyed today~
Although i dont have much sleep
Because I'm up early in the morning after 3hours sleep
To accompany my mommy to Pasar Seni
and now... body aching
=S

It's 3am plus now anyway
Gotta get onto bed~!!
Island awaits me~

curious?!
Yes!! am flying to Langkawi tomorrow~
weee!!!
Looking forward to the 3 days 2 nights trip
mwah!

Totally LOUD!!

2010-06-07T03:11:00.000+08:00

OMG omg OMG!!
I totally enjoyed the night at ZOUK last Saturday~

Just me and Mumusan.. we heading over to meet the cicak and his friends~

Because.. haha~!

Yeah!
It's LOUD and my fav DJ bLiNk is there~

totally cute!!

and also
My darl was there too~

totally cRaZie!

Well.. let me explain why will I head to the LOUD party
It's all because that I wanted to look up
and coincidentally, cicak's friend came up to KL frm Melacca
plus, mumusan has the guest lists
XD

The night was really great!
Awww! I miss it so much~
when all the PuayChai-ans club together!!
haha!

But but but...
Cicak also very geng lar~~

Wee!!
♥

Catch Up Sessions

2010-06-06T17:39:00.000+08:00

Well well..
I've been pretty busy lately
So many yumcha sessions suddenly came by
As some of them are leaving Malaysia for studies
Some of them are starting to work
and also it's been so long for some of them who I havent met for so long!

In the past week,
I had all the yumcha sessions~!
and photos are all up at Facebook
:)

Still,
I have lots more to catch up with some other people
:)

4♥ - Our next session is karaoke ritE?LOL
Fang and Teng - we shall skype soon!! or try the new one - oovoo
Dear lily - all the best for your exam~! it's your FINAL.. i mean...FINAL!! :)
and also ur intern~ Dont miss me and your daddy so much~ hahaha!
Krystle - all the best for your study.. dont go eMo so easily~! and assignments are coming up~! so add oil!!
Darl - I wanna catch up with euuu~!! so many things to share!!

明知我爱你

2010-06-03T13:32:00.000+08:00

告诉你　瞒着你　只不过是个决定
放弃你　忘记你　只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你　越靠近你　越犹豫

明知道我爱你　却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你　宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理　幸福在手里
我恨自己　无能为力

明知道我爱你　却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意　反而痛了自己
多痛都可以　不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系
真的没关系

告诉你　瞒着你　只不过是个决定
但为何到如今　我依然无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你　越靠近你　越犹豫

明知道我爱你　却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你　宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理　幸福在手里
我恨自己　无能为力

明知道我爱你　却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意　反而痛了自己
多痛都可以　不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

明知道我爱你　假装不在意
多痛都可以　不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道真的没关系

k.i.s.s. YOU ♥

2010-06-03T03:25:00.000+08:00

I just feel like
k.i.s.s.i.n.g
YOU

Will you allow me to do so?
mwah!

你很愛她

2010-05-28T03:43:00.000+08:00

我向南了
你往北了

就因這樣
拉闊了我們的距離
越來越遠
還好只是短暫

也許是真的
我是這麼覺得
你只是曾經愛過
這樣就足夠?
她比較適合你?

為什麼是問號
因為捨不得,
是不夠的
因為不想就這樣
不想要你喜歡她

当你确定你要离开我
我没有说什么就当做了自由
有好几次我都想挽留
哭求也没有用就当做是寂寞

只有我能明白
她的温柔对你也許是种解脱
只想要你告诉我
谁是你的最爱?

其实你很爱她
对我的惩罚
说你没有想他是可怜我吧
我已没有借口只能放手
不敢奢求你说爱我

其实你很爱她她很温柔吗?
其实你很想她就说出口吧
我已不想多说摀住耳朵
不想再次听到你说你很爱她

就·只·能·放·手·了
是吧?
還在眷戀什麼?
沒有藉口只能放手
不敢奢求你說
你也一樣愛著我

the Wai Sui Thursday

2010-05-28T02:29:00.001+08:00

Ngyiahahaha!!
Today is a very special day..
erm.. actually not really special lar..
haha!

Well, let me explain what's "wai sui"~
It's actually a term in cantonese
meaning very erm.. what's the right word...
erm.. magnificent? hahaha
whatever.. LOL!

As usual, we hang out on every Thursday
Sing K has somehow become the usual activity
But today, kinda special,
Cause we planned to swim!!

and after so many years,
I played bowling today..
and surprisingly got ONE strike
ahhaha!!

I think the last time i played was during my secondary school
hahaha!
takde bowling kaki mar =S

but yet..here is where the "wai sui" thing comes
we dont know the route, at all
hahaha!
This is when and where the google maps work best!
hahaha!

But when i got home,
my mom actually already bought a GPS lar..
ish! and i didnt know!!
==

uh-huh!!
Lets get back to why is it so "wai sui"
As usual, I drove.
Same route to Salak South
But frm there, I dont know the road to TimeSquare!!
Still, we manage to get there
wahahaha!

and what's more "wai sui"??
without any mistakes,
me and Lok found the swimming pool
and also the right way back
wahahaha!!
No mistakes at all.
Totally smooth all the way frm TimeSqure
and then pass by the swimming pool
and then back to the condo.
XD

MangoGirl who doesnt know KL road at all
and bibubibu 38 Lok who will actually got lost in Ipoh
actually found the way back to Salak South from TimeSquare
wee~ ♥

ini dua orang~
kakaka! memang~~
Daring~ haha

大膽到～太亂來咯!!
不會路還亂亂闖
還好
真的太幸運了
威水到~~
一路走真的順到～～
還找到游泳池
啊哈哈 =D

But end up,
we didnt get to swim
Cause it's kinda scary...
the stadium look VERY DARK
=S

well, today is also consider a farewell for dear Krystle
♥ Although we just know each other not long
But shall keep in touch yea~
hehe ^^

MangoGirl L.I.K.E you

♥ wee~ all the best ya~

Crazy activities awaits u~
Penang again~ Hard Rock Hotel!!
Sunway Lagoon~
bla bla bla~ alot more
wee!
♥

diet wait u back
wahaha!!

There goes my "wai sui" thursday~
and after getting back frm TimeSquare
I drove back from PJ to Seremban~
haha

First time driving highway ler
hehe ^^

Interesting!!
but my mother got "heart attack"
=S

Cause my driving skill really sucks
Yiiii.... *poke finger* Sorry mom!

Mm-hmmm.. looking forward for tomorrow~
Melaka ONE day trip
wee~!! ♥

P.e.a.c.e
mango mango ap-pie
^^
♥MangoGirl♥

Charlotte Baby 's Birthday ♥

2010-05-28T01:46:00.000+08:00

On the 22nd of May
Charlotte baby's birthday
wee~!!

See, she's so happy~
But sadly
a few of us wasnt happy that night
=S

Urgh.. i even did so many bad things
and results are really bad
haiz

=[

How can?!!
I'm bad....
really bad.
I've tried the things i've never try
and i always anti-ed!!

=\

NEVER again..
Yuck...
feeling
G.U.I.L.T.Y
=[

♥ U

2010-05-24T02:25:00.000+08:00

It comes to the point that you just love someone so much that even though it hurts alot to stay, you keep holding on.

It is because you can always let go of all the pain, but never the little happiness you get out of loving that person.

immissingyou
=\

It hurts.
It's difficult.
It's mercurial.

Yet,
♥U
It meant so much.

墮落

2010-05-23T18:06:00.002+08:00

為什麼?
我心情真的很糟糕
甚至學人家抽煙?
很難抽 ==
味道超難頂
雖然只是那幾口
呸!

昨天
是我最墮落的一天
很討厭的一天
甚至是我不認識的自己

以為自己會沒事?
那是想太多
以為他真的喜歡你了嗎?
那也是想太多

前幾天還好好的
心情起伏真的太大了

對不起
令你失望了
0 分了吧?
活·該

自己令別人不喜歡你的
現在怨什麼怨?
有什麼好怨的?
活·該

本來我真的寧願那樣
只是有你在身邊
就很好了
只是待在你身邊
也就很好了

只是你的忽冷忽熱
我實在忍受不住
一直在心裡問
到底是怎麼了

我猜不透
兩個人只是得過且過
無法感受每次觸摸
是真的是熱的
還是假的?

如果乎远乎近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果乎冷乎热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

我真的寧願這樣嗎？
如果我真的寧願這樣
我現在不會那麼在意你的一切

也許這可能會令你反感
因為我們只是好·朋·友
太多的關心
也就多餘了

之前我是死心了
差不多
只是那天偶然發現
你終於說了你對我的感覺

終於
理·清·了

只是
為什麼?
嘆氣~*
好善變
還是我會錯意了

對不起
我又自作多情了

我闭上眼哭了
像是刺蝟般防范伪装得勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对你时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无声黑暗
心痛得大声呼喊

渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺蝟般的坚强全都是假象

又要再次告訴自己
不要想太多
不要越陷越深

是時候覺悟
我們
沒·有·可·能

或者該是
從·新·開·始

PJ again.

2010-05-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

Pj again?
Kan I'm from PJ?
haha~

Yes.. But then i just got back from vacation mar..
3 days trip to the north Malaysia
and Main location = Penang
^^

It's been a really tiring trip.
Hmm.. I wouldnt write much on this post
because i have so much to share about the vacation!!
:D

Will soon upload after organizing my photos~
♥
By the way,
It's Charlotte's birthday today~
Been up early and traveling for whole day
and now.. waiting to head to Poppy~ urgh!!
hope it'll be again another fun and happening nite
:D

laters.
:D

v.a.c.a.t.i.o.n

2010-05-19T20:03:00.000+08:00

i'm off to vacation for 3 days~
This time again we are heading North to Penang :)

Yay~!!
Makan trip~!
hmm..Penang, half of my hometown.
Cause my dad is born in Penang too~ hehe ^^

Well well,
Makan trip
urgh!!
Definitely i'm gonna gain weight~!!
Urgh!!

Damn sad lor..
But i wanna eat~~
ish~!!
How can I dont eat all the nice food in Penang?
LOL!

hmm..therefore!
Strict Diet next week onwards~
=\

I'm still in the hospital now..
Still doing the discharge procedures
urgh~!!
anyway, wishing my brother to recover soon~!
I wanna go home pack~~

Happy Holiday to Myself!!
Penang 20thMay-22ndMay2010
♥

手術之旅 s.u.r.g.e.r.y

2010-05-19T19:08:00.000+08:00

Admission : 18May2010
Discharge : 19May2010
Operation hours : 3Hours+

Sickness : Sinusitis

Yea!! Surgery nicely done~
Recover soon my dear brother~
:)

Muacks ♥

Weekends

2010-05-19T18:02:00.000+08:00

As usual, i spend my weekends at the taekwondo academy~
And i've been eating Chicken!!
haha~

KFC+Nandos~

Besides,
i also went for Chili Ban Min

This was the best ban min ever~
hehe ^^

And then,
When I was shopping at Ikano Power Centre
I saw something interesting - Shimino

It is a popiah-like roll
served with various favours
Fruits, Cakes, Ice Cream + Whipped Cream
It's really worth a try~
♥

After like a few minutes,
I've decided to try this
Well, it's quite fattening
haha~!
But as my dinner lar~ :)

Choc+Banana

And there goes my weekends :)

when KatoOnBoy hit the cLub yo!

2010-05-19T16:02:00.000+08:00

It was the first time when my brother hit the club yo~
Hmm.. it was a really happening night
With Summer's cousin and friends.

Well, many things happened that night
It's been so long since the last time i drank liquor
and this time really geng lor..
liquor mix beer
chiberg? Calrsvas?
hahaha
Chivas+Carlsberg~ Urgh!

But surprisingly i wasnt drunk
wasnt tipsy at all
==

But still we had fun~!
wee XD
Another one should be on the coming Saturday~!
Lets wait and see~!!

h.o.m.e

2010-05-13T00:37:00.000+08:00

No matter how far you go
You'll never forget your way home

I'm finally back to home.
and again.
Home Sweet Home ♥
I wish to myself
:)

Well, I've been so busy after leaving the hostel.
For the passed three days,
I've been visiting the medical center!!

*shock!
o_O
but don worry
it's because my uncle just done his tonsils and sinus surgery
but it's just minor surgery
^^

and now he's discharge from hospital~
wee!!
Hope everything goes well.

mm-hmm
Basically nothing much bah~
Just that I need to think of my future plans
Plan plan plan~

As i've already graduate from Uni
A Degree Holder now
=\

Well,
I guess it's vacation first
then only i'll start working
=\

mm-hmm
cant wait for tomorrow's outing
sing k session~
Wee~!!
Sleep now
=S

2010-05-10T06:01:00.000+08:00

今天開場時, 在觀眾席當中看到你時
心情是有點開心
驚喜非常

怎麼你們來了?
是我心裡的第一個疑問

因為之前都說好了不能到現場支持的
你來了
謝謝你

不知道當晚的歌唱
有沒有令你失望了
希望是沒有

很好奇
怎麼我這麼在意你的想法?
自己也不能解釋這種感覺
在意就對了
^^

每一天都有一个新的昨天
每一个昨天却是一样你的脸
如果爱如你所说像个旅点
你在我心里的容颜
为什么没变

每一夜都有一个梦的起点
每一次梦醒思念却没有终点
如果心如你所说终会疲倦
究竟我还要多少天才能改变
停止对你怀念留在昨天

哦忘了吧哦忘了吧
其实有了你真的很累
给你一切却不能期盼你回应一些些
哦忘了吧哦忘了吧
昨天我和你真的很美
一面回忆一面流泪
自己也不了解的感觉

告訴過自己不要再想了
好想忘記只是當好朋友
只是自己真的太感性了
沒有去想又好像不是自己
想了也沒怎樣啊?
反正自己想想就好了
偶爾想想懷念一下下也不錯啊
好好睡一覺
明天起來又會是全新的心情咯

雖然對你還是有那麼一點感覺
不過我們都變了
起碼現在的我們
比之前相處來得自然多了
也許這樣剛剛好就夠了

那天晚上,
是我多心了嗎？
還是你只是累了

F.u.l.l S.t.o.p

2010-05-10T05:31:00.004+08:00

It ended in such a beautiful way
Where Yes, it wasn't the best
but still I've give my best
No regrets ♥

It isnt the end.
It's just a full stop for this competition
^^

Wishing all the best to the top6
^^

♥ Thanks again I would like to say to my family
Even though it is mother's day, but you all came to the studio to support me
I really appreciate it.
Mommy, I bet I've give u the best mother's day present this year
Did I?? ^^

♥ Thanks to my relatives
Who supported me whenever you are able to come over even though it's only a cross over roadshow with OneFM, also every of my performance in Sri Pentas II.

Who watched TV at that time.

Who supported me far frm East Malaysia, and Overseas watching online.

♥ Thanks again to my friends who supported me
Especially to those who came all the way to Shah Alam
*although tomorrow is your exam
also those who watched me on TV
and voted for me.

Thanks for supporting me all the way although it wasn't a very long journey
But for sure I appreciate every performance.

♥ Not only them, I wanna as well thanks to all teachers.
Toni, Fabian&Vina, WenKang
Judges

♥ Thanks to all contestants.
nice to meet you all~!

♥ Thanks to all crew.

It's been my pleasure meeting all of you.
I've learnt alot during this short period.
and It fills up a part of my lifetime memory puzzle.

I'll always keep this memories in my mind.
The days we had together ^^
♥
Good.Bye
and
I guess....
Some day, some time, some where...

We may meet again.
Till then,
Take Care
=)

Final Thanks to those who ♥ my singing
and supported me.
I'll keep on singing
Never give up.
=)

Ultimate Power Group Season 2 Year2010
-end-
♥

9th May 2010

2010-05-09T01:21:00.000+08:00

A very Special Day which combine all four events!

Happy Mother's Day to all mum~
especially my mommy - Serena Foo muacks!! ^^ ♥
Happy Birthday to my dear daughter - Lily
Happy Lunar Calendar Birthday to my dearie > Teng

and lastly
All the best to all contestants of Revival Round UPG.

SMS Code:-
type UPG (space) YEAN and send it to 33399
voting time : 9th May Sunday 830-10pm

*UPG5 for 5 votes and UPG10 for 10 votes
*MUST be in CAPS
*Thanks

Best wishes to all~!
Lets rumble the stage tomorrow night~!

Misses h.i.m

2010-05-09T01:15:00.000+08:00

It's been quite some time for not seeing him
*err..not really~
hahaha!
Well, I'm not sure whether the feeling for him is still the same
but one thing for sure,

I miss h.i.m.

The feeling suddenly strike me
hehe ^^

And that is why I'm writing this.
Although I knew you not long
But the memories we had was great.

At least,
when i recall it,
It's
s.w.e.e.t
♥

Suddenly i feel like writing in chinese,
really sorry for someone who cant read chinese.
Well, i'm not sure whether you read =S
If you do, too bad for you~ hahaha!
Cause this is gonna be eMo!! XD

其實
我很想告訴你的
我真的好想你
只是沒有這個機會
也許有的
只是我也沒有勇氣告訴你
就在這裡向你說一句吧~!

我好想你!
想念最傷心但卻最動心的記憶
♥

想告訴你
幸福沒有那麼容易
才會特別讓人著迷
有時候
我還是會想想你
^^

IP Man 2 Spree

2010-05-08T22:11:00.000+08:00

Ip Man 2

I believe it has been the topic among most of the people recently
Well, I've watch it twice. ♥

Where the first time was a sudden one
Where we manage to get the first row of big hall
But it doesnt affect the movie at all~
It's still so nice!!

Donnie Yen Rocks! ♥
Ip Man Rocks! ♥

Where the second time
It's also a sudden one
hahaha!

but we got a better seat this time
It was suppose to be a yumcha session
but end up watching Ip Man.
For the second time~ hahaha!

Although I already know the story
but still it is nice
Great Movie~
a.w.e.s.o.m.e

4th May 2010

2010-05-08T21:37:00.000+08:00

An ordinary day~
But a special day for me~

Once again,
me and my jimuis from Uni
but again... ==
Steph ar steph.. when are u gonna join us ler?? =\

mm-hmm~
why so random 4th May??
Because it's Teng's birthday
:)

wee~ ♥
It's been like 4 years since we know each other
and still we are so good~!!
Waiting for ur wedding arr teng
hahaha!

a.p.p.r.e.c.i.a.t.e
♥

Ultimate Power Group Life Starts Again... ...

2010-05-08T21:22:00.000+08:00

Again.. I abandoned my blog
for like.... hmm..... a week? LOL
Sorry people.

So i'm now here again~
to update you guys wat happened

I've not mention that I'm not back to the
Ultimate Power Group hostel right?
Ya.. i'm back there..

First thing when I got back,
I'm so not use to the hostel
As hmm..Snow is not here anymore
People i'm close with are not here.
=\

The next day after coming back
We headed to Monsoon-ID for hair cut.
And......

urgh!
I'm ahBoy now..
damn s.h.o.r.t!!

well, i just have to get use to it~
It's already a week plus,
I've already adapt to it
haha!

As usual,
diaries, VT, etc etc
all the shootings..

Getting ready for the Revival Round
Hopefully it will be a great night tomorrow
: )

Nice to Meet Euu~!

2010-05-08T18:07:00.000+08:00

It was the first time we met
Nice to meet you!
:)

Well, it's been really nice knowing you anyway
^^

But it's only 3 days
=\
How short.

But still we manage to take some photos
wahahaha!!
and Spend some time together.

Tony Roma's Dinner
Movie
Shopping~~
Daorae Dinner

Just that I've not try your cooking
and also you've gotta teach me Korean!!
XD
Wee~~ <3

Take care. Till then.

~Blaze Band~

2010-04-26T01:13:00.001+08:00

First of all, today i'm here to introduce a band of my friend and I think they are quite talented and potential band~~♥

Blaze is the name of this band

It is a band formed by 5 guys frm Ipoh Perak.
Consist of a Vocalist - Reeve,
a Guitarist - Bronson, a Drummer - KeeWah,
a Bassist - HanYit and also a KeyBoardist - MingHong.

Well, I've met 3 of them
and they are all very nice guy to hang out with.

But what's most concern is how good are they
Right?
Well, they are in average level I can say.
Great in a way, ♥
Not excellent but not too bad.
There are still alot of spaces for them to improve
*well, this is all just my own opinion frm my own point of view

They have been performing in some events too~
So people, if you would like to invite a band for performance,
You can try to contact them thru me :D
Just leave me a message here and I would get to know

or also
Catch them on Facebook!!
♥BLAZE♥

And here
I would like to share a song written by them
Including this MV :D

*bare in mind it's just a low budget production. The vocal is not recorded in the studio =S So do not have high expectation. But it's GOOD in it's own way =)
It's their first time doing this anyway
So please support yo~!

BLAZE - 我的爱 My Love

Lyrics - Kee Wah, Poison & Reeve
Song - Poison

Production Crew:-
Director: Poison & Leo
Editor: Poison
Camera man: Nicholas
Logistics: Summer

Cast:-
Main Actor: Poison
Main Actress: Dior

-♥ eNjoY ♥-
and then
-♥ leave a comment ♥-

Thank you.
♥

Time to Sleep

2010-04-25T03:46:00.000+08:00

It's time to sleep~ 340am~
Almost 4am~

Urgh~
i doze off so many times
ahahah~

and i'm already on my bed
=S

But I just don wanna get myself sleeping yet
Cause i have to many to share with you guys
Anyway,
more are coming
Hope you guys enjoy reading my blog
^^

I'm going to sleep now
♥

As I almost forgotten tomorrow I'm suppose to go over to share my singing techniques with my juniors for their singing competition on Friday =S
Sleep sleep sleep~

Ohyea~
Wishing all the best to my brother - Thomas
XCrew~ mwah!! ♥
You are finally in Taiwan ^^

mm~~ and in such a nice mood for this two days~
Happiness is just around the corner~
Grab it before it slips away again
=\

Nites people
or
Morning~

XD

Oh My Saturday~!

2010-04-25T03:36:00.000+08:00

After a long night on Friday
i slept all the way
and hoping to sleep until i'm totally awake
But Poison called~
and asked me whether to go Seremban with him anot~
to return a drum set to his friend~

So i just say
ok arr~ as i can also go back to visit my grandma~ ♥
So i quickly wash up and got myself ready~
But when he is on his way~
There was a super jam somewhere near our uni~
Not sure what happens ==
urgh!!

Then I waited for an hour from JayaOne to PJ Kelana Jaya
wth?!
haha!

anyway, we reached Seremban around 330pm plus
After returning the drum set
We headed for Hakka Mee~
wee~~

and then buying the Siew Pao~
^^

After getting everything~
I pay a visit to my grandma~
♥
mwah mwah mwah!!
Grandma, You must take care har~~
hehe ^^

After all this we headed back to Selangor
calling off our one day trip to another state
wink wink~*

When we are heading back to Summer's place
we took the Lekas Highway,
where the toll is not distributing those normal ticket
This is something like access card~!

Wow!!

Interesting hor?
hehe ^^
and we reached Summer's house around 8pm
Thanks for the meal :D

and
Happy Birthday to Summer's mommy~ ♥
that calls off my Saturday!!

Actually today I felt happy~
mm..not sure why
But the happiness just flow~

♥

好喜歡現在你和我的現狀
=)

♥ Barsonic!! ♥

2010-04-25T03:09:00.001+08:00

mm-hmm
It's been awhile
half a year since the last time i went Barsonic~
this time
I'm going with my brother's colleague
as they are kakis too~
haha~!!

At first I told my brother
yea, i just wanna go get the member card
But then after some considerations
I decided not to go~

BUT
my decision changed again
as my fren sms-ed me~!
Yay~
ada teman dah~!
hahaha!

Quickly finish settling stuff from academy,
I headed home,
took a quick shower and make up abit
Vroom~~!!
Headed to Barsonic~!!
Wee

Nice to meet all the new people~!
Yay~
After party, we headed to McD CentrePoint for breakfast~
430am
T_T
VERY TIRING arrr~~

I slept at 6am in the morning~
=\

Share some photos here~

It's been long~~~ Long Island~ I miss you~!!!

Mumusan's Colleague

Nice to meet you all~~ :D

the Wang siblings~ ♥

OuNo!! Who is this??

Wind~ ♥

outing at 23Apr2010

SuperBang+iGirls+Blaze

2010-04-25T02:47:00.002+08:00

hmm..what is this suppose to be?
As I was working outside
I receive an sms
"hey, wanna sing k tomorrow?"
wow!! frm WeiHoong
Yay~ I felt so happy
wahahaha!

Singing can really make my day~
and i thought eh?it's Thursday~
ahLok also off wor~
so i ajak Poison and him along
thus
2 of Blaze band member

1 of iGirls

and Super bang

We sang for like 5 hours~
haha!

kinda tired noh~
hehe ^^

I went to pick them up anyway
and I was driving "dangerously" i guess
=S

So when we are heading home
i wasnt the one driving
and someone try to be "safe"~ haha!

So he put on the seat belts and then
Fall asleep~~

Awwww~~
♥-ly

thursday - 22Apr2010 outing

Back to U.N.I

2010-04-25T02:42:00.000+08:00

Nah~
It's not about me going back to uni for any academic purposes
It was my bestest bud - KK
and he is on his final sem
Well, Congrats!!
You have finally finish ur study week~
but you still have to go for exam~
So you are not OFFICIALLY graduated arr~
Dont be too happy at this stage
hahaha!!

Basically,
I've accompany him back to uni for 3 times for the past week
2 days for presentation and 1 day for assignment
=S

The first day was his Public Speaking Presentation
where he was a special case
Having private class
So his presentation requires audiences
and therefore
Me, WeiKeong, Jun and ShiMin went over to be his audience~

Preparing the speech~

Tutor evaluating

Demostrative Speech~

After the presentation,
we headed to Duck King for lunch~ wee XD

That was the first presentation on last Monday
then Wednesday, we head back to the MacLab for Multimedia Broadcasting assignment
What a Coincidence
Poison bump into me~
So we chatted for a while till Tjun came
=S

and now the 2nd Presentation which is the Multimedia Broadcasting's Presentation
it was a formal presentation
therefore my fren wore formal
and i wore semiformal too~
hahha~
The presentation was 8am in the morning~
OMG!!
I rushed out and didnt manage to have my breakfast~
So we headed to Tappers for breakfast after the presentation
^^
and he choose a table number which he says resembles me "38"

we had two sets of each~

a total of 4 sets for our breakfast
OMG
==
damn full~~
hahaha!

and since we are both wearing kinda like formal~
We took photo!!

♥

B.U.Z.Z

2010-04-25T01:38:00.001+08:00

Back to last post,
I know why there wasnt any calls last week
XD
He went to poppy garden for the MintAnni
Well well,
I was really busy with the academy's work lately
So I do not have time to manage my blog~
urgh~~

hmm..anyway, I'm here today to write a few blog posts
^^

The work in academy is almost done~
Yay!!
Finally getting most of the things done!
Wee~~
Mm-hmm
As I'm going back to hostel soon on Wednesday
Hopefully things can be settle by then

Oh yea~ anyway,
my younger brother's birthday had just passed
which is on the 20th April
Legally turned 18years old
^^
Congratulations!
and also Happy Birthday~
On his birthday,
We went to makan at 1U
Fish & Co.
nice!! but have to spend lor
=S

Hopefully it's been a great celebration for u this year ya~
^^
Mwah!!

Unexpected/Unpredictable

2010-04-19T04:10:00.001+08:00

Back to Friday night,
argh~!
No incoming calls received
=\

Well,
It's ok.
Lets see whether the weekly sms still continues.
Hopefully.

*that's regarding daMouth
haha!

Then it comes to Saturday
where I've been busy whole day at the academy
as it is the Grand Opening :)
Congratulation to my bestest bud - Keith
and also my beloved brother - WenBing

Then, here come Sunday
where early in the morning
I got up to get myself prepare for the sharing session with my juniors
hehe ^^
Singing competition~
So happy to share things i've got with others
Yay~!!
All the best people~!!

hmm..and then headed home around 530pm
and then I called lucky star.
He've got plans on
:(

But I called him too late lar~
But he says it's ok to join his friends~!
Wee~
Then I considered for awhile
So i drove over to Sunway Pyramid
Yay~
Wow~!!
It's been so long since we've met
Awwww!!! well,
I still miss you sometimes~!
hehe ^^

Anyway we had Sushi Zanmai for dinner
It's always the Japanese Cuisine :D
And guess what?
We bump into Man,Samuel and WenKang laoshi
OMG!
hahaha~!

mm-hmm
Nice to meet everyone today anyway
hehe =D
After dinner,
we went for movie
and it was their earlier plan.
Hmm.. so paiseh ler..
Bought another seats but am sitting with lucky star
thanks much to 小蟲
=\

Sitting alone two rows nearer to the screen.
Well, this was the movie we watched
Shutter Island starring Leonardo Dicarpio

and then i walked alone all the way to parking lot
Gosh~!!
Damn scary..
Luckily i'm safe
=S

Phew..
hmm..I dunno what else to say~
Well,
Just wanna say that

I just miss the good old days
=）
Lucky star,
For sure you did bright up my life
♥ and now, still you do. ♥

Hope to see you again soon.

The Grand Opening of E.X. Taekwondo Academy

2010-04-19T02:18:00.004+08:00

Finally~!!
My friend's and my brother's Taekwondo Academy is now open~!!

CONGRATULATIONS!

Located at SS2
right above McD
^^

Nice location right?
=D

Please do drop by for enquiries~!
We are offering packages for our grand opening
♥

Also log on to our website : http://www.extaekwondo.com
for any further updates!

Not forgetting to be a fan of our Facebook Fan Page too!
http://www.facebook.com/pages/EX-Taekwondo/131943829845?ref=ts
Thank you for your support!

friday

2010-04-17T02:57:00.000+08:00

What comes to your mind when it's Friday?
hmm..

off day??
Weekends??
End of work??

For me,
It's nothing special
but
another week has come to an end.
Clock's ticking
Time's running

Am I living to the fullest of my life?
I think i'm more likely wasting time.
u.r.g.h!
But I just love the way of my life now.
Am I really satisfy with the current life?
Aargh~~ I dont know
T_T

Well, after judging for my secondary school group singing competition
It reminds me so much of the competition I'm currently participating.
Ultimate Power Group. ♥

hmm...
It's really hard to perform as a group
when you dont know each other well enough
=\

Mm~ felt so tiring whole day
kinda emo emo emo!!
But I have to finish up all the work in academy
As tomorrow will be the Grand Opening of
E.X. Taekwondo Academy~ :D

It is located at SS2 PJ, Selangor
Right above McD SS2
Feel free to drop by for enquiries
♥

So basically today me and my brother just helping out at the academy
and there goes my Friday~
1230am only we reach home..
more than 12hours out of home again~
=S

mm-hmm..
besides,
I would wanna wish my lovely brother - Katoonboy
Best of Luck for his Karate Black Belt Grading tomorrow~!!
mwah mwah mwah~ ♥♥♥

Hope everything goes well tomorrow~!
wee ♥ XP

Well,
actually i'm kinda emo now~
thanks to all the emo songs~!!
wahahaha!!

Actually i kinda like to be emo
I dunno why..
But I just love the feeling being emo.
Lonely but...nah~~
Dunno how to describe it~
Blue blue dei~ kakaka!
Syok mar...
It makes me go crazy thinking stuff that i dont always think
In a way it's good isn't it??
^^

But i dont wanna write about emo things today lar~
If not it'll be too FREQUENT
and this is not a life-blog anymore
haha
It's should be emo blog then
cause it's flooded with all my emo posts!
LOL

Ok lar..
That's all for today lar~
Happy Saturday~!!
Hope everything goes well
♥

Getting slim

2010-04-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

hmm..today
consider diet = passed

Cause....urgh..
I dunno how to say it lar
LOL

hmm..nothing much done
But staying home the whole day
And I actually browse through those blog posts I posted back then.

I realize, in most of the post
When I'm emo,
I'll say
"your words are influential"
hahahaha!

and looking back the even more previous posts
There are so many pass by-ers walking pass my life
Yes, at least i know
My life is beautiful~!
I've met so many people,
been through so many,
bla bla bla~!

And now, i just got back from SS2
Helping out with the academy again~
Yay.. things are all getting done.
Latest by tomorrow arr~
Grand Opening on Saturday!!
weee~ XD

Anyway,
I'm gonna sleep early tonight
Dont think so much~!
Tomorrow i gotta get up early
Finish up the house chores
Before heading over to Taman SEA
which is my secondary school~
Cause again, I'm one of the judge for their
Chinese Singing Competition and tomorrow is the the "Group" Category!
Yay~

Mm...and after the judging,
I guess we are gonna finish up all the work for academy
Then am actually looking forward to the nite.
:)

Any plans for Friday night peeps??
=S

Actually i'm a little afraid of not seeing you
Cause it's been like 1 week~ hehe ^^
Awww... although we still keep in touch lar~
XD

But then I saw someone's heading to Singapore.
=\
mm~~ worrying~*
Hopefully we still be able to go out~
^^

Ok..ok..
Thats all for today~
Sleepz
Zzzzzz

o.c.c.u.p.i.e.d

2010-04-15T03:30:00.000+08:00

Again again~
It's been a few days~
As I promised at the previous post
It's time to share some photos

So i just arrange some of it here~
Too many to arrange
=S

haha!
That is why I've not been posting blog for the past few days
hmm..as i mentioned
Last Friday~ I went to judge my secondary school's chinese society singing competition
Well, it was fun~ haha!

looks pro huh??

Me, KK and Braxton

After judging them,
KK headed over for his FYP
and left his car with me and two lil brother~
OMG!!
So we headed Sunway Pyramid to walk around
and we had j.co as tea time

Yogurt

Doughnuts!!

and my all time Favourite!!

Peppermint+Choc

After that, we headed back to pick up KK
and it was really jam!!
OMG!
It took us one hour from Sunway Pyramid to Section17 PJ!!
urgh~!!
Luckily i pumped petrol before heading back from Sunway
^^

how smart am i~*
XD

Then, the same old gang again~
Went out for movie at Tropicana City Mall
"Beauty On Duty" - missed the opening
URGH!!! nvm lar ^^
as long as we are hanging out together
then it's all quality time~!!
wee~!

After movie,
Summer keep on saying lets go club
Maison
urgh~! but i don feel like clubbing ler..
after like.. not going for around 5 months??
Then suddenly, he mentioned!
Lets go Genting!
Wow~!! everyone agrees~!!
and then~ Off we go
to Genting!!

Wee~!!
It's already the Fourth time since i know them
not even one year
and yet we are so close hanging out
and there are memories flooded all around Genting
hahaha!
It's seems like it's the "usual place" we used to hang out
haha~!

and guess wat?
I've finally enter the casino~!
hahaha!
and the police just checked their I/C
but not mine??and saying
"Aa..ini tua punya..masuk.."
wth?!!
urgh~!!

Fine fine..
no big deal~
But yeap!! nice knowing Charlotte Xuan anyway
^^
Around 430am I reached home
Feel really tak sampai hati nak turun kereta
=S

There goes
and I stayed at home during the weekends!
Finished watching a taiwanese drama name
"下一站, 幸福" (xia yi zhan, xing fu)
starring Vanness Wu and Ady An
It's really nice~!
Almost every episode i cried
T_T

And I started to The Sims 3
and it was SO DAMN ADDICTIVE
and kept me awake until 530am in the morning after my brother coming back from Barsonic
Orz

waahahha!
Then, I helped out my brother and KK with their academy stuff
as coming Saturday will be the Grand Opening of E.X. Taekwondo Academy!!
Yay~
It's located at SS2 Right Above McD
Feel free to come over for enquiries~!!
=D

But I was suppose to help out today
and it ended up hanging out with my family at 1U
haha!!
Lets see how abt tomorrow yea?
Sorry about today.

By the way,
I shop again today~
Thought we were just going for movie
"做人 Being Human" Directed by JackNeo
quite nice~ Creative!
hehe ^^

Then lunch at WongKok

me and my mommy!!♥

and then we headed for shopping~!!

Snow dear~ does the shirt looks familiar? wahahaha!!

I bought it too~
As my mom loves it!!
♥♥♥

ngek ngek ngek~!
Anyway,I gotta head to bed.
It's 330am~ OMG!!
urgh~
Always so late arr
erm..or shall I say so early??
haha!!

Urgh
But why didnt I receive reply??
Fall asleep?
hmmm....
Anyway~~
Looking forward to Friday night
mmm~~wats the plan for this week??
^^
♥the messages
♥the pampering
♥the songs
♥the lyrics

Awwww~
♥Gosh~~ You are sweetest addiction♥
^^

f.a.i.l.u.r.e

2010-04-09T04:49:00.000+08:00

People do wonder.
why this title?
Well, basically it's about the event I attended few hours back.
In my own uni - UTAR PJ

Hmm..this afternoon,
I went to Cheras
and did something kinda ridiculous
As we headed over to get some taekwondo equipments from the dealer
At first, we were waiting for Sir
so we ordered a drink frm a kopitiam.
But as we just drank our very first sip,
Sir called and we gotta go.
And guess what we did?
Paid and ask them to keep it for us
After getting all the things,
We headed back, the two cups are still on the same table
wahaha~!!

ridiculous lar~~
but some might think it's normal
=\

Well well, back to the main topic.
Event of the night - Express to Impress
total failure for my emcee performance
urgh!!
First of all,
I wasnt being told that I have to be emcee for the whole event
=.=
We dealed for the Ultimate Power Group session only
but end up, the whole event.
I know nothing about the program flow
It was all last minute~!!
WTH?! Ya i know although we are close friends
But it's not that way.
If you need my help as emcee,
Please inform me earlier.
I would, same, help you guys up.
It's not a last minute job.
I need to prepare my speech as well.
=.=

urgh~
Ok, fine.
Ya, you think i'm spontaneous enough to handle
But end up? ok..maybe people think
still ok lar..
But for me myself - NO, FAILED... bla bla bla
There are too many dead air occuring during the show
I was so lost, didnt know what to do at all.
=.=
Unclear of the situation, the flow, many other things
sighs~*
Enough of whining, I shall talk about something else.
=S

Oh yea, I miss my friends in Ultimate Power Group~
Awww~~ Please do well in the competition ok??
mwah!! I'll be right back~ :D

hmm..anyway
i'm heading to my secondary school tomorrow
For the Chinese Society Singing competition
One of the judge would be me...
o_O

ahaha~!
But before heading to my secondary school
I think i'm heading to a warehouse sales~
Hopefully i can get something~!!
wahaha!

mm..
今天
他變得好不一樣

他好像回到
我們剛開始認識的時候
那個沒有任何顧忌的我們
那個一起混到像哥兒們的我們
那個有一份關心存在而戀人未滿的我們

也許是我自己想太多
不過我真的寧愿這樣
因為這樣的相處方式
才是我們彼此熟悉的

我從來
都沒有理清楚過
你對我的感覺到底是什么
也不曾真正問過你
也許有只是答案往往都不是
我想要聽到的 =\

在剛剛的那一瞬間
我是有閃過
我們未來的可能性
我真的好想好想好想好想他

不過人總得面對現實
而且這些已經算是都不重要了吧

還是想謝謝你
讓我的記憶方塊
增添了一塊
幸福 . 快樂
的方塊

即使只是兩個人
并肩的走在一起
就可以是很幸福了

我知道
我也幸福過
不對? 嗯
^^

話說回來
我好像好久沒有 share photos 了
遲些讓我整理好了
就 po 上來吧~!
已經快要早上 5am 了！

睡覺咯~
安安~

f.i.l.l.e.d

2010-04-08T02:15:00.002+08:00

Two days without writing blog seems
I've left out so many to share

mm-hmm
the graduation portrait have already collected
I prefer the family portrait more
compare to my personal portrait
=\

Well,
I love my family
^^
hehe

Tuesday night, after fetching my brother home from work
Me and my younger brother headed Sunway Medical Centre
as my eldest brother just got his sinus operation done.
b.l.o.o.d
everywhere =S

Dont worry..it's a common illness nowadays
My younger brother just went for consultation this morning
and also got infection and proven -- "sinus"
After the consultation this morning,
I waited for an hour for my friend to pick me up
but end up I gotta take cab
and it's the first time i took cab - A.L.O.N.E
but what's surprise is that, i'm not afraid at all
==

It's all because of the changes of the uni's system
u.r.g.h!!
Hate it so so so much~
Luckily i've graduated a sem earlier
eViL gRiNz~*

mm-hmm
Long story short,
today basically I accompanied my friend to the JPN for renewal of MyKad
As he got picked pocket a few weeks back
Poor thing lar.. =S
and another thing to mention here is that
Polis Diraja Malaysia
urgh... no comment ==

after all this
We headed to 1U for so called early dinner
It was my first time trying the ShihLin Oyster Mee Suah
quite nice lar
hehe ^^

Mm-hmm
that's it for the passed
and tomorrow, again
I'll be emcee-ing for UTAR Event soon in few hours later
hehe ^^

and also the judge for my secondary school singing competition
^^
haha~

Mm-hmm
share something scary here..
which happened just now~

I heard some sound outside
and yet my family members are all asleep
u.r.g.h~!!
But my elder brother is still outside.
I texted him about this
and when he reach home

urgh~!!
As i suspected.
Stupid stray dogs looking around the dustbin for food
==
apa ni~
ish~!!

mm..
suddenly switching to the emotional me
That day we chatted for awhile
and i know that you went to consult doctor
hope you'll get well soon.

Reminding myself again
Please, let go.
Do not hurt yourself again,
e.m.o.t.i.o.n.a.l.l.y

Maybe it'll develop to just
c.l.o.s.e f.r.i.e.n.d
some day.

I understand
it's just that
I dont wish to
u.n.d.e.r.s.t.a.n.d

I'd rather lie to myself
until the day
where i wish not to lie to myself anymore.

w.a.s.t.e.d

2010-04-06T01:24:00.000+08:00

Am I doing the right thing?
Hmm..I guess i'm not.

I wondered.
Since when?
I started to be such irascible
I got so frust when something is not well done.

I got disturbed easily.
u.r.g.h

This morning,
I woke up
With my swollen eyes
I warmed up my throat and headed for vocal class
and luckily,
my teacher says the song i chose was ok
Continue to practise with it
At least one hour per day bah
=D

Get ready for my revival round
I shouldnt waste anymore time
I've wasted one week.

*sighs*

Telling myself
One last day to be
i.m.p.u.d.i.c.i.t.y

Here again,
I'm telling myself
reminding myself
I shall move on with my life
He is no longer the "him"
I used to be so close to

Delete the bad memories
and shall always
only Recall those which are great.

t.h.a.n.k.s.
Thanks for the moment that you've made me so special.
Thanks for the memories that you've left for me.
Thanks for the happiness that you've brought to me.

謝謝你
曾經讓我幸福過
要好好照顧自己的身體
不要被病魔折磨了
=）

and lastly,
words for someone who is currently chatting with me.
Hmm, i'm writing this in English, as i know you dont know chinese
:)
I'm not sure whether you know I'm writing this especially for you.
But I know recently, you do read my blog.
Thanks..alot. :)

Cherish the moment with her.
Dont get either emo or angry.
She checked, because she care.
She's worried, maybe she's feeling insecure.
Let her know how much that you care for her.
:D

nites!

2010-04-05T02:08:00.000+08:00

It's the second post of the night.
The previous one was in chinese

So I guess some dont know wat happened.
I went e.m.o again.
Just a sentence
and there goes my mood.

I'm not sure
But i thought that I've let go
and just only
I realized
I have not.

It's again to remind myself
He has finally got someone else
and literally missing her.

So
what's more that I can do??
Appreciate.
Friendship is always the longest relationship

But here
I would like to thank someone
who accompanied me during the moment just now
But I also wanna say i hate him
Cause before he go for bed,
he told me something which is like a dagger that stabbed into my heart
so deeply
I couldnt control my tears at all,
but it's ok.

I'll be fine
really soon.
Dont worry people.

I guess you too
know I'm strong enough to handle my emotions
that is why you are treating me in such a way
that is so cruel.

I'll always remember
only remember
the moment we cherished together.
Throw away all the sadness.

=D

2010-04-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

我不把標題放上
是因為我不知道可以放上什么標題

情緒還好好的我
被你的一句話
只是一句話
就能夠影響那么多

你
原.來.已.有.了.別.人

都怪我自己
在
facebook 的惡作劇
相信是有好有壞的

我真的很想告訴你
我心里想著的
還是你

我還
放.不.下

本以為
我可以很堅強的過我自己的生活
卻沒想到
連輸了比賽
都看得開的我
就因你的這一句話

就這樣
眼睛
不.聽.話.了

可能
是
憋了很久的關系

你不再想我了
你不再愛我了
但是
都太遲了

因為
我已
喜歡上你了

喜歡到連自己也覺得
莫.名.其.妙

一旦插了手
就不能半途而廢
不是嗎？
也許有一天
我會發現
堅持本就沒用

疑惑

2010-04-03T04:02:00.000+08:00

到底 “愛” 是什么?

好想遇到一個好好愛我的人

空 e.m.p.t.i.n.e.s.s

2010-04-03T03:57:00.000+08:00

是一種感覺
留在家里
面對著四面墻壁
好.空.虛

還好今天一早就去了
facial
中午呆在家
好.悶

晚上駕了車出去
探望中學老師去了
探望結束
心里想著
不.想.回.家

拿起了電話
撥了一個號碼
二話不說
車子往甲洞駛去
肉骨茶宵夜
n.n

和兩位剛認識不久的朋友哈拉
算是找朋友來消磨消磨時間
因為在家里真的感到
太.空.虛

本想說
去 club 的
只是
好.悶.哦
沒有 mood
urgh~!!

謝謝！
就這樣
一.個.孤.寂.的.夜.晚
不再孤寂

emptiness
It's the feeling i'm feeling at all times
when i'm all alone.

planned to go club with my brother
but
I thought not to go
As my mood is not there.

After my facial session in the morning
I was totally dead staying home
Luckily I went to visit my secondary teacher
=]

After visiting
I felt like straying around
don feel like going home.
So I took my phone
and called

Vroom~
Kepong Bah Kut Teh
here I come.

Thanks for the time.
It breaks the emptiness
=]

Do call me out soon again~

mixed~* 混亂~*
u.r.g.h
What do you really want?

我真正想要的
到底是什么?

聚會 g.a.t.h.e.r.i.n.g

2010-04-02T02:25:00.000+08:00

It's been quite a long time
After I entered hostel,
2 and a half months we have not been hanging out
Today we finally hang out and did one of our usual things
k-session~ hahaha!

hmm..before heading to k-session
I woke up early to mop the floor
haha~
Wonder why am I so obedient huh?
Cause i wanna go out for the whole day mar
kakaka!

hmm..as i finish house chores and washing up myself
my jimuis finally reached my place and we headed to ss2
Prince Cafe for lunch =)
Steph arr steph,
when are u free to join us?
everytime our jimuis session u also left out one ler~
ish ish~!

and am so sorry to my dearest for being irresponsible
and thanks for helping me - my family.

Today's k-session was fun and worthy
as we were all totally crazy screaming our lungs out
especially Lok
ahaa~! and we sang for 4 hours straight!!

wee~!
hehe :D

Anyway, i better get to bed already
tomorrow i'm heading for facial at 10am~ woohoo!!

Yes YES yEss~~!!
and maybe there will be some activities going on at nite~
wahaha!
and my brother start working in 8TV le~
I asked him
"you saw Kirk and Wind today?"
he answered
"ya..we sat together"

hahaha
=P

anyway, wish mumusan all the best~!!
heart you!

urgh~
and when i have got nothing to busy with
my mind is all about you~
I care what you say, what you think, how you react, bla bla bla~~
ish ish ish!!
why arr??!
it's been like almost a year already..
why cant i just.... u.r.g.h!!

I still
m.i.s.s
U

Full Day

2010-04-01T02:04:00.000+08:00

I was suppose to wake up early in the morning 730am to accompany someone to class
but unfortunately i couldnt wake up~
bwahahaha!

So when i was awake,
straight away i text and asked, so hows the plan?
Still on?

hehe :D

and YEAH!!
It's still on~
Glad glad glad~!

hmm..so i quickly bath and wash up
get ready for the session
haha!

It's was a great experience.
All the best and I will always support you
^^

After all this, I still havent say what did i do rite?
haha~!
I went to the recording studio with my friend
where he is going to get his first debut EP done soon~!
So everyone must support ya~ haha!

mm-hmm
and I saw Rynn 林宇中 just now
kakaka~
Well, again,
i learnt alot from David 老師 today
Never a waste of time accompanying my friend to studio
:D

But so sorry,
I gotta say to my darl~
Soon i'll call you for a tea k?
muacks
Dont angry hor?
=\

mm-hmm
and then I'm going to meet up my jimuis tomorrow
Argh~ Really miss them so much
but again, steph couldnt join us~
urgh~!!
ish ish~!
nvm lar~ Will catch up again VERY SOON!!

after the lunch session,
then it'll be k-session
haha~!
I'm gonna practise my singing and choose my song for the revival round
LOL~! ^^

I think it's gonna be a great day tomorrow~
wee~!!
enjoying life to da max
kakaka~!

and i'm going for facial on Friday~
woohoo~!!
yay yay~

Anyway,
heading to bed now...
but then i'm totally awake~
urgh~!!

oh yea~
Happy April Fool ler~ haha
Hope i'm not the fool of anyone
as i didnt fool anyone yet~
haha!

moving on

2010-03-31T03:24:00.000+08:00

Right after the competition,
I wrote the previous post with a very mixed feeling.
Truly, it's really mixed.

I dont feel sad nor happy.
I just felt hmm..."why?"
Well, we should always
Learn to accept the fact.
^^

me and my group - iGirls
had finished our final program on Monday
which are the UPG Diaries shooting and also the OneFM interview at night.
After seeing all the comments others left for us,
we are really satisfied as people do see that we had perform the best on that nite.
no regrets!
:D

And of course,
we had "public holiday" after we had been eliminated
although I'm in for revival round
hehe ^^
but one day holiday lar~
which is I went for laksa dinner and i ate a little of KFC fried chicken~
omg~! damn fattening rite?
hehe ^^

once in a while lar~
:p

anyway, heading to OneFM was really fun
totally no pressure,
well, i guess it's the adaption
We are used to being interviewed gua~
hehe ^^

After the interview,
We iGirls all moved out.
It was a really happy mood moving out although it's a little reluctant
as in I couldnt have some pillow chat with Snow and Candy anymore!!
But YES!
i'll be right back joining u guys
and Candy too :D

Super Bang, Samuel, Jim and Chris, also 小豆！
Wait for me~ :D

Tuesday, the first day at home
Finally i'm able to sleep til 12pm!
haha~

and i realize i left my clothes at the hostel~
so i texted Snow whether she wants to accompany me
Although i dunno where she stays
but then I still asks her address and finally
so smart am I
I found the place ^^
All alone
kakaka~!

But then we can say we spent around 2hours in the car
as it rain really heavily and cause a very stupid jam at Kota Damansara
ish!

I'm happy to spend time with her again
before she left Alor Star
It's been really nice knowing her.
We shall always keep in touch =)
Sounds like i'm confessing =\

Snow, I heart You~
hehe ^^

Although it's short,
but the memories are beautiful
:D

It seems really empty
spending the night all alone at home.
Am still feeling mixed.
Not used to the feeling yet =\

but things will change bit by bit
^^
slowly adapt lor
hehe :D
it's my home anyway wert
that I've been living since the age of 8
:D

mm-hmm
i gotta get to bed~
tomorrow i have something interesting on~!
wee~!!

Looking forward :D

走

2010-03-29T05:01:00.002+08:00

还久没上来了
生了好多好多蜘蛛网哦
是时候打扫了

说长不长
说短也不短
就这样
3个月过了

没想到
第一场复赛就被K出局了
并不是我们的表演不好
只是, 不够好
=\

但是
在这里学到东西真的好多好多
最舍不得的应该就是认识了
两位好姐妹 - Snow 和 Candy
虽然我们只是短短相处了才两个月多
才刚开始要更加认识对方的时候
就要离开了

毕竟
比赛是现实的
不能以实力取胜
只得靠人气
结果人气也没有很好
就这样, 被刷出局咯

比较幸运的是
我和Candy 还有机会进入复活赛
而残酷的是 Snow 则不能复活
但是, Snow,
你要知道,你真的做到了！
笑一个嘛～！你哭的样子好丑哦~!
要继续加油~ 这个只是一个豆号
让你暂时休息休息哦～
学会更坚强, 把心情收拾好
到时後我们还要一起努力打拼哦！

好早哦
我是一点睡意也没有
到底是怎么了？
归属感何在？
也许老师为我担心的东西
终于发生了

*mixed feeling*
where did it went wrong?
and
Why??

心有不甘是必然的
但是, 回到最终
这固然是比赛

我还有更好的明天在等着我
^^
笑一个,
明天会更好!

在这里
官方也要说一句了

谢谢大家对我的支持
家人, 朋友和亲戚
想特别说的是
爸妈,
对不起, 让你们失望了
不用太担心我
因为我就要搬回来啦～

我不会放弃音乐的
^^
ahYean, 复活赛加油吧!!
原来

我是一个
感.性.的.人

Weekends at Home

2010-03-07T20:17:00.001+08:00

Staying at home is the best comparing outside
I absolutely understand the feeling of those who left their hometown and came all the way to KL for further studying.

Well well, i also realize that mom's cooking is always the best!
hehe :D
i think that's the reason why am gaining weight at home..
Food has been the most evil temptation ever
^^

I must have the realization of competition is really around the corner
Starting tomorrow I'll be on tv almost everyday
Monday to Friday it will be our diary
and Sunday is our competition day

OMG!!
It's really scary.
Competition is such realistic
If you are not good enough
Off you go. Bye and go home!

u.r.g.h!!
Orz

So people,
Pray and Support my group - iGirls
iGirls Facebook
We will do to our best

and

Catch us on tv
every Sunday starting 7th March 2010
830pm at channel 8TV

and also

every Monday to Friday
our diary at hostel
130pm at channel 8TV

anyway, I'm heading back to hotel in less than half an hour time
So, i will not be able to online so often.
Do support us o~~
mwah!!

e.m.o.t.i.o.n

2010-03-07T03:09:00.000+08:00

As I see his photos, it reminds me of him.
I thought of the past, it was a great time when we used to hang out so often
when we first knew each other.

But things changed so much after years,
We are like strangers now.
We didnt talk at all for months
til i wish u happy birthday recently.
and just a "thank you" reply.

But this is what we call "fate"
Right? I believe much in this.
And hope I can really find someone
before I have to go some day.

Well, happy to say that i'm back at home.
But less than 24 hours left for me to stay at home
Seriously, i miss home so so much that i don wanna go back to hostel
However, it's my responsibility
I've participated in the competition
and the 1st round is approaching. I'm really worry
worry that i'll disappoint alot of people
and even myself.
But saying all this here is bullshit-ing
What i gotta do is prove to people that
I can do it!

So, I guess it's really late now and i gotta go to bed
for a better health
haha! :D

so goodnite people
or for some, good morning!

7th March 2010
830pm
Stay tune 8TV
and u'll see me on tv, i guess :D

Happenings~

2010-03-04T09:35:00.000+08:00

Finally my hair is trim-ed
^^
but actually nothing much changes
Just trimming mar..
not cutting :D

I went out of hostel yesterday after the One2one session with
WenKang laoshi and YongShan
Everything's still fine though :D

Well well,
my friend's taekwondo academy is under renovation and it's gonna start its business very soon~
located right above McD SS2 Petaling Jaya, Selangor.

Today, we are gonna clean up the whole house and then
get ready for some shooting
Hopefully everything goes well :D

and i'm getting a little lazy recently
urgh~
how can this be?!!
ish ish~
Lazy in terms of exercising..
Orz

but then, it's really time to get everything done
at least 2 hours of training everyday should be the standard requirement
to keep up on our standard
Whatever it is, i'll do it til my best.

So, catch us on tv coming Sunday 7th March 830pm
:D

laters.

Days in Hostel

2010-03-04T09:16:00.002+08:00

Written 1March2010
Time 1848

It’s finally March, first round of competition is really around the corner,
Our hostel is now renovated and well furnished as the living room will be the studio for our diaries recording :D
Let me show you~

Our dining room

Our living room

Besides, all the 8 mall roadshows has finally finished
Thanks all for supporting us during the roadshows
Especially to all my family members and some friends~
Love you guys <3

Today I started to jog again, and I also helped Candy for her make up competition
It’s bad for skin though, but still I just willing to help out lar
Hehe :D
And WeiHao finally announced, that we are going for hair do tomorrow!
After that will be back for vocal class~!
But then I need to head over to the dentist =\
My retainer drop off, =[
Hopefully it can be done tomorrow~~
Wee :D
I think that’s all for now, stay tune 8TV at 830pm on 7th March 2010
And You’ll see us on tv~ hehe :D
Besides, I’m looking forward to my convocation~
Argh~~ kinda tak sampai hati =(
Wuu wuu~

Life Goes On

2010-03-04T09:15:00.000+08:00

Written 27Feb2010
Time 0151

The day of our first round competition is getting nearer,
pressure are getting more and more.
It’s somehow a good thing if I don’t over-pressure myself.
:)

Well, I just had one vocal class this week as vocal teacher was sick on the second day
Thus, we had a whole day free. But I did something which is not suppose to I guess.
u.r.g.h

Besides, I also had one dance class yesterday
Unfortunately, my group doesn’t have enough time for the teachers to choreograph for us
s.i.g.h

I have not much time to think about other things
Thus, I have a clearer mind here now. Concentrating well in competition
and shall wish for success :D
The last two roadshows before competition will be 12hours later and the day after tomorrow
=\

I’m feeling e.m.o anyway. I dunno why though
Ish! But don worry, it wont last long.
oh yea~ by the way
I cut my finger =( urgh~ sad lor..my thumb got an injury now
T_T ish!

So guys, do stay tune 8tv for my group yea
iGirls go~ :D

Back.

2010-02-24T22:19:00.000+08:00

Written 24February2010
Time 0100
It is now the third day back to hostel, well
Practically the 2nd day plus as it’s only 1am on Wednesday
mm-hmm nothing much happen but I didn’t slept well last nite
but still I forced myself to wake up early for the morning jog.
I NEED to EXERCISE and go on diet
u.r.g.h! Hopefully I’ll be good by then. March~
It’s less than a month! Orz
Today we met the new guy staying with the guys,
and he is my foundation coursemate?! Omg~
Hahaha
How nice if he was staying with us girls, at least someone I already knew mar
ahahaha! But Kirk is leaving tomorrow
Yier~~ :( Tak sampai hati-nyer~~ =\
Argh~ but I think I should get on to bed now as it’s quite late
as I’m going for morning jog again tomorrow ALONE =.=

Well, vocal class started today,
And our trainer said we all gone worse =\
Oops!! Well, it’s time to practice our “first round song”
All the best is the only word I can say to myself and my group.

One more thing, wild boar is heading South now..
In the train going to Singapore
And then flying off to New Zealand tomorrow
How sad is that =\
Be sure to keep in touch ok? Ish!!
Roar!! And all the best to you too!
Take care aite~!
I will be shiawase!!!
So..no worries :D
*hugs*

Ok ok..exceeding already =.=
Thought signing off wahaha!
Wait wait, one more thing before ending this post,
I went back to uni today, and it was like
SO QUIET~ hmm..I start missing uni life
=\ urgh!! But I’ve graduated and I even submitted all the forms and convocation fees
Well, it another path and life shall move on~!
Yean ar yean~ Ganbatte neh~! ♥

Happy Birthday Snow!

2010-02-24T22:17:00.003+08:00

Written 23Feb2010
time0133
21 February 2010 The Special day for Snow
It is her 20th birthday this year :D

Happy Birthday again :D
Again, she cried~! Wahahaha! And I succeeded to surprise her~
As I planned it with XiaoDou ngek ngek ngek~!!
I didn’t contact her at all a few days before,
and she thought that I was still at Seremban :p
Yay!! And this was the cake we bought for her

This were the few of us who celebrated with her in hostel

After celebrating with her, I “throw” some of my stuff back to hostel
So that it wasn’t so “heavy” for me to bring it all on Monday
And then we headed to Murni for supper at 12am
Abit guilty lor.. Cause I promised my dad to be back home early =\
Chilling out session with friends is really a great thing for me
2am baru reach home
Urgh~~
Anyway, Happy Birthday to Snow again wahahaha!

Days Before Hostel

2010-02-24T22:04:00.001+08:00

Written 23Feb2010
time0131
It was only the 9th of first month in the Lunar Calendar
and am now back in hostel, using my friend’s laptop to type this.
Basically, I cant access to the internet daily, so I’ll try to type on microsoft words
and then update my blog at once when I am able to access to the internet :D

Well well, in the previous post, I give out all my temper at once
I know it was really bad. I felt sorry for my mom :(
and I actually wanted to write a letter to her to apologize…but in the end,
I didn’t =S
So, I say it here. I’m really sorry mommy =\

Mm-hmm..let me continue with the CNY occasion
:) Let us not keep those bad things on mind
Last Saturday early morning 630am
We started our journey back to PJ from Seremban
as we do not want to stuck in the conjested traffic predicted to be bad
We reached PJ around 8am and then we headed for DimSum breakfast at DJ
:D yay~
Let me share some photos here
Here is the place where we had our breakfast

and look~

delicious rite?? Wahaha!
and when you call for bill, this is what you get

Right after the delicious dim sum breakfast,
I went for facial and it was like…wow! Felt deep cleanse
But my face now is like..urgh~ @.@
Well~ it will recover soon =\

After the facial session, I headed to fetch Lily
And it was the last day to hang out with Wild Boar,

as he is leaving to NZ for working holiday~ Urgh~!!
Don’t make me miss you lar~ ISH!
Anyway, we headed for K-Session with other 3 of Blaze band members
:D
There, from left to right

Lead Guitarist –Poison
Drummer – Keh Wah (*did I spell correctly?) =S
Vocalist – ahLok
Nice meeting you all anyway :D

And then, at night
I headed to Setia Alam Eco Park, Shah Alam
for open house session
Wee~ :D
As usual, no changes for all CNY.
But it’s been long, that I’ve not been catching up with “him”
and he even got his driving license already, not long, but one month
I was the first girl that she fetched haha! Cause I insisted that I wanna sit his car~ LOL!
Well, he has changed, a.l.o.t
But still he is himself that I knew from when I knew him :D
It was so familiar that I almost forgot the current status~ kaka~!
But anyway, all the best and I will always support you no matter what is it that you are doing :D

There goes my Saturday spending my whole night til 3am only started heading home.
Happy CNY and I guess that’s my last day of CNY mood – ing
Hostel life starting on Monday… … … …
-End-

a.b.r.e.a.c.t.i.o.n

2010-02-19T04:00:00.001+08:00

It's the worst Chinese New Year ever this year.
Not because of the weather and any thing else
but urgh!
Seriously, I don't understand
Why cant I hang out with my friends?
What's wrong?!

It's there such thing as hanging out TOO often?
NO way~!
I just dont get it.

I wanna be rebellious
Am I the only daughter and that is why
I am over protected?
I just feel like living outside
ALONE
and fight for my own future.

I dont wanna rely on family anymore
How can I achieve that?
Haiz

I'm feeling so sick now
early in the morning
I've not been sleeping since 7am the day before
it's almost 21hours.

It's "cold war"
and I bet it's gonna last for days and then maybe
months
as I'm going back to hostel in 3 days time.

I hate CNY, this year's incident make me hate CNY so much
It's about spending time with family,
that is what my mom says.

But,I've been here for a week
and what have I done?
online everyday basically
and that's what call - L.I.F.E for me.
Gathering with families are important
but arent hanging out with friends are important too?
I don get it.

Why do some of my friends are able to go for vacation during CNY?
They need not to be at hometown and bla bla bla~
Not other, just as an example,
A close friend of mine,
he NEVER stayed overnight at his grandma house
==
and i've been here for a week? yet i never make noise

I just requested to go home a day earlier
JUST A day...but end up??
It's not like I wanna quarrel with you
and make this CNY that was suppose to be happiness
full of hatred.
Why cant you just let me be whatever I wanna do??
It's not wrong either??

I know you are worry about me.
But mind that I'm growing older,
we've got to learn to be independent
urgh!

I'm much calm down now compare to a few hours back
and probably I would be scolding all the foul language over here
and made this a bad post =\

Well, I dont mean that this post is good
It's just that it is much organize
point by point.

Well, thanks to WildBoar and Takako
my mood are much better now
Besides
thanks to my "essense" too
luckily i back them up in my external harddrive
and also mumusan's audio technica headphone
It was awesome! and it made my day.

Approaching 4am.
I dunno whether to sleep or not
as i just browse
"offline".
It was "away" 15mins back then
A week is not really long nor short if we were to describe
I'm confused.

Am I trying to avoid/escape or hide myself
Making fool around whenever he is being mentioned
I guess it might be an act of escapism
Not to let the wound continues to bleed
As time goes by, hopefully it will heal
and it might be the best remedy for the scar left.

CNY mood continues @ Hometown

2010-02-18T15:37:00.000+08:00

Well well well,
I used to like my hometown so much that I didnt wanna go back home @ PJ
but as I grew up
I miss home
I miss hanging out with my friends

Urgh~
Am I a little too
erm..how to say ler..
in chinese we say 不粘家
which means erm..
something like do not stay at home
=\

haha~
but this CNY i didnt visit any of my friends' house yet
how can that be??
and I'm getting back into "jail" on the 22nd!
Orz
NO!!

Lets continue with CNY day two at hometown
ordinary day where i kept on eating non stop
==
and then supper session at Mamak~
Orz

then CNY Day3 where we send my uncle off back to ShangHai
around 230am
and airport was totally.. .. .. ..
EMPTY!!
Look at the photos:-

and then I slept until 2pm the next day
haha!
here comes the CNY day3
and dinner was crab!!

I miss the crab session in Sitiawan!! =\

and then I online till "early" morning 4am until my connection went cacat
Orz
If not i don think i'll be sleeping at all
haha :D

As this morning I went for breakfast session with my family

look at me..

the dark eye circle
u.r.g.h!

and this was my breakfast where i used to eat since young!

Wanton which only cost rm1.50
:D and this price only applies to our family

and so..i'm here online today
whole day
=.=
haha!

and my cousins are going back to Melbourne today
I'm gonna miss them so much!!
Chantel

and

Charlotte

♥Love you both!♥

Paws-perity Chinese New Year 2010 Day 1

2010-02-16T20:51:00.001+08:00

Reunion dinner ended quite late and we headed home frm Seremban around 11pm
end up

countdown in car
:D

Quite interesting too actually
haha!
Cause we wind down the mirror
and took the first breathe of new year
♥

As I reached home
I couldnt tahan anymore
change to my pajamas and straight away
pig on my bed
but i only slept around 2am
hehe XD

Then here comes the morning
where we ate the vegetarian food
and then change our clothes
off we go to Selayang
Visit our grandma

♥

Chill for a few hours
We headed home and packed our things

After dinner
we headed back hometown - Seremban
:D
*wee
Around 10pm plus when we reached
and as usual
I don wanna mention anything here..
Photos will tell =]

ha-ha-ha

and there goes my first day of CNY2010
also my valentine's day 2010

*wonder did someone thought about me? o_O

♥Message sent but nothing in return, not even an ordinary greeting =\
Awww~~ Orz

la~la~la~
There goes and day2 of CNY coming soon
=]

R.E.U.N.I.O.N

2010-02-16T19:50:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year I would like to wish everyone!
Although it's already day3 today =\

the day before reunion dinner
I hang out with the usual gang where i used to hang out
outing time delayed as they have to finish up assignment first
before we head to Timesquare

Well
it's been awhile that I have not seen my brada - Summer

all because that he is a WH4 =.=
ish~!
Luckily that day he still say Yes when I asked him to come along :D

Then, we headed TCRS for lunch
what's TCRS? I wondered awhile too
It's The Chicken Rice Shop anyway
haha :D

then Wild Boar brought his newly bought shades - ZeroX

macam very yeng ajer =.=
haha!

mm-hmm..we shopped for 2 shops then I have to leave lu
As I'm heading back Seremban for reunion dinner the next day
*for the first time ♥
Then, I went home packed and headed back to Seremban

The next morning,
I woke up early as we are heading to my uncle's for praying
:)
Then, my uncle brought us to this mamak for breakfast
Very cheap~ :D
Nasi Lemak, Mihun or Mee
only 70cents per packet

i ate mee =\
as we were too late, nasi lemak finished!

After breakfast off we go for praying

As we were chilling out,
my brother was force to 面壁思过

haha!

After lunch at my uncle's place
We head back to my grandma's house

Preparation for reunion dinner
♥dress up
♥bla bla bla

and so..i did a mask

hoho!

and then here am I ready for reunion dinner :D

First time headed outside for reunion dinner
Well, it was quite a mess
as we waited so long for the dishes
and it all mix up~

The dessert serves before shrimp and
拼盘was suppose to be the first dishes and it came last
=S

Well, it was great getting all family members together

♥Lou Sang♥

Happy Chinese New Year again
check out more photos on my facebook :D
*next post more one CNY happening*
:D

24 Hours = Not enough!

2010-02-11T01:25:00.000+08:00

Can I have more time?
24hours a day is definitely not enough.
For a person who loves to sleep
just like me
haha!

Well well
I actually did nothing for the whole day
Just sitting in front of the computer
doing some research
and there goes all my time!!
u.r.g.h!

I've finally met my daughter, my daughter's daddy, cicak and the wild boar!
wahhahaa!
the gang we used to hang out so so often~!
after 2 weeks of "jail-life"
wahaha!

Hanging out in 1U as usual
and it seems wild boar is the one who is buying stuff
Cause he is flying to NZ soon~
Argh~!

Lesser people to hang out with liao
=\

hmm hmm
but seriously
I felt happy yesterday
hehe XD

hanging out with the people you like to hang out with
is some how "shiawase" we say it
hehe XD

erm..i also dunno what else to write here liao~ haha
maybe i'll be sharing some photos on the next blog :D
-sLeepZ-

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