Wei Jie's Wedding Dinner

Congratulations to my cousin brother who got married yesterday
You are now husband of ur wifey larr..
Take good care of her arr
and I wish u all the best
Appreciate and Cherish all the moments together
:D

Well, basically that was what happened last night
before the night falls
but I was really really bad mood
Really feel like killing myself
So I drank red wine and beer during the wedding dinner
but no matter how much I drank
I just dont get drunk
where I actually wanted to get drunk and forgot everything else that is on my mind

and ah-ha!
Forcing out a smile and pretending I'm happy is really what I always did well
Disguise all the feelings I had deep in my heart
Only open up my heart to myself and to my blog

But I felt bad when I'm back at home
I couldnt sleep at all and that stupid feeling in my stomach
Eiuuu!
But still I'm so tired that I fall asleep even though i'm not feeling well

Then this morning my mom woke all of us up early
and I have this hang over feeling which made me feel really bad!
My head feels like it is 100tonnes!
=.=

But still I just hold on to myself and then wash up and did a mask
After a mask started cleaning the house and bla bla bla
there goes all the house chores

Half way of that,
I had to go out to settle my loans
URGH!
The stupid PTPTN
ish! I really hate the service in Malaysia
Dont wanna mention anything about it
=.=

After settling all the things
Headed home and continue with all the house chores
And now I'm having serious back ache
haiz~*

and this morning
I found out the reason of me
being so childish on last Saturday nite after the movie
hormone imbalance :: sighs

Ya.. I fucked up everything
And we are not talking anymore

urgh
Ok. As you wished.

I am again staying home alone again
even though people asked me out
sighs*

I didnt have appetite at all
=\
Let me fall sick.