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Wednesday was really an awesome day for me.
As the whole day I'm running in and out with my mom settling things frm the bank
and also I went for pedicure~ ooh~! nice!!

and at night
it was the premiere of Resident Evil : Afterlife
I got the 3D ticket frm my uncle
2 tickets therefore I went with my brother
The movie was awesome but one thing is that
we have to surrender our mobile and any electronic devices
=.=

very sien lor..
after i finish the movie
someone also fall asleep already

and I thought aww~ thursday is coming
Yay~ and my mom is away from home
I got so much freedom to do wat i wanna do
So I was so looking forward for today
but it ended up really bad
worst day ever i can say.

At first i thought
everything will go as how it was planned.
one of my friend wanted to go Midvalley for his watch
but even though he has only one day off per week
I insisted to go Timesquare
Cause I know he is working there
and after his work we can have dinner together then back home~
Aww..how sweet of that right?that you can spend more time with the special someone

But sometimes
things just doesnt go like how you think or how u want it to be
things got so bad today
everything was ruin just because I did something........
It was still ok before evening
and I am stil having hopes before we had our dinner.

Disappointment strikes me.
And I have no appetite at all
I thought desserts will help to cheer me up but it didnt
sighs*

Walked and surveyed all the apple shops
But the thing that he wanted to buy is no longer selling
not even the one in Pavillion

Ya..i know i'm silly
walking all over bukit bintang =.=
haiz

It's ok..
Well still I'm happy that I met a new gal today
she's so young and I know I'm getting older
=.=
Well, she is a nice gal though
I went all the way to Klang just to pick her up
with GPS ahahaha!
Luckily I just have to send her back to oug :)

Hmm..after whole day of disguising my feelings
I finally pour out after sending everyone home
I felt so quiet, lonesome and helpless

Why doesnt he even bother to just send me a sms
letting me know that he is already home?

All kinds of questions strikes me..
and I was driving slowly on the highway
dangerously as well as I wasnt concentrating.

I almost got hit by a car coming out frm a junction
Not noticing it until he honk me so loudly
:(

As when i almost reach home
I quickly wipe off and dried my eyes
and thought things would get better
I texted him :: I'm home

:(
and the feeling comes again
So I quickly ran up to my bed
*so that my family wouldnt notice anything

After some time
settling my emotions
I went to take a shower and hope everything gets better
But as I bath, my mind just wouldnt shut
All sorts of things coming in

And I broke down in the bathroom.
Wash up and changed
Off i head to my bed

It seems so hard to control my emotions
haiz*

I dont know what should I do or even say now.
It just started and things are already going so bad?
How would it lasts?
and just now you were asking me
Have I regretted?

What are u trying to implement?
How would I be regretting?and Why??
Haiz*

Sometimes I just dont get it
what's actually on your mind?
I'm really sorry for doing something you dont like and that you've told me before

But today, for what I'm thinking is just hanging out altogether
and I was hoping so much to meet up with u after ur work.
Haiz
I just hope to spend more time with you.

I hope u will appreciate and cherish the time we have together
Cause it seems like we dont have much time
That's what I'm feeling right now.
Things are gonna change, for sure.

When I start to work
When U start ur new semester
and bla bla bla all sort of things
*haiz

I dont know will things really work out this time
But we've gone thru so much
haiz* I'm feeling so mixed right now

How I wish it not so complicated.